reply to post by meathed
I don't usually talk much on ats but i can relate to this and have an opinion.
I recently had to put my best friend Missy down. Missy was a golden mixed with a cocker spaniel. She was my best friend since i was 8 im now 26 she
was 18 years old. She went with me everywhere every time i moved she always was there. I came home she was there she was my first puppy my first true
Recently she had been getting confused when going outside getting lost and going to a neighbors waiting to be let in. she was having the same trouble
getting off the floor her back legs would give out on her she couldn't really go up stairs at all. she had went deaf about a year before she stopped
responding to commands and sounds but could still see. This year she started losing vision but about 1 foot in front of her face.
She was still very playful wanted attention waged her tail stayed by my side wanted to spend every second as close to me as possible. Well i had a
falling out similar to yours albeit i was not married but a fairly rough breakup which made me have to move and i couldn't take Missy with me i
couldn't afford the extra $100 a month for a pet deposit. So i had to put her down.
Everyone told me well she had a good life and dont let her suffer but i let my own greed i guess get in the way i didnt want to let her go i saw a ton
of life in her big round eyes. Im a grown man i dont usually cry but the thought of losing my best friend from childhood made me ball for hours the
night before. it wasnt easy. I kept trying not to cry as the next day wore on.
A pet especially a dog youve had for a large portion of your life is a part of you a part of your family. youll never forget them i assure you that
but it does get easier. I ended up putting her down staying through the whole procedure holding her as the anesthesia kicked in and telling her i
loved her even though she couldn't hear me.
She went through everything and i watched her pass away i wont lie it wasnt easy but i know she isnt hurting anymore she isnt confused anymore shes in
a better place even if thats an eternal nap shes not in pain. the first few days i regretted it thought i should of done more or tried harder to keep
here but as time has passed ive realized she never left me. she will always be here in my heart. i had her cremated her ashes here with me until i
have a house and i can spread them in a rose garden (she always loved to smell roses when we walked)
I still talk to her ashes even if people thought i was crazy she was a loved one and i believe she can hear me somewhere and it brings an easy feeling
to my heart knowing that she feels better. That she cant feel pain.
I have since moved again in with another woman we plan on getting married we are very much in love i swore id never have another dog after that but
this weekend i adopted an 8 week old pug chihuahua mix we named him Harley. I fell in love with him he is my little man now who just got told not to
chew on the keyboard lol.
I dont love him more than Missy i do love him as much. it does get easier. I think that its going to hurt when you have to put Nugget down but it will
get easier you will keep trucking. You may even find another companion to love just as much as i have.
Ease his suffering ask yourself in a reverse roll would i want him to do it for me. know its quick and painless and that he will move to another
place. It will get easier. Love knows no bounds even after death.