reply to post by mossme89
dude, what ever i type here is meant with the best of intentions and a genuine understanding of where your coming from!
its big subjects and so much that could be said, which is why i wanna (try) keep it short n sweet.
"some of you here could relate or comprehend to complexities of my emotions"
trust me its all mountains out of mole hills..
my rough year lasted 6 years and i'm just getting over things. negatives are a catalyst for something better!!
by the sounds of it your picking up on the new energies that are going on, whilst having that feeling of "whats the point" on a few levels. whislt
dealing with "normal" things. getting all "emotional" about things won't help,, it'll just make anxieties, stress n all that worse... No need!!
remember the world has been set up to fuel our fears, egos and insecurities, which after a couple of thousand+ years has left us emotionally
"challenged"... all people are in one way or another, at least your willing to talk about it and willing to try to sort things out.. admiting the
problem is the first step
at the end of the day, what your getting worked up about, does it really matter in the grand scheme of things?? i say no not really.
your gonna get to know people for a year then have to meet others, if you meet some real good mates then you'll stay in touch, if not no worries,
you'll meet more people and you'll have more experience, better luck next time.
as for the bird, you know you've blown it, let her go, but who knows what may happen in the future, once you've stopped letting anxieties get the
better of you. fingers crossed you get the oppurtunity to show her you are actullay a decent bloke! like you said, you keep crossing paths. just
chillout and learn from it. you can and will do better!!
the way i see it- fear, anxiety, stress, depression, paranoia, all that are the same bubble, learn from them but never let them guide you/ get the
better of you, never react
to them. the more you react to them the more you empower them... for me, when i was battling things, it was like my
mind would play games, it would throw negative thoughts into my head, i'd react to them and think about them and things would snow ball, so easily, so
often. all because i obsessed on the silly little things! the more Energy/thought you put into things the worse it'll get.. or better, what ever the
case may be?!
you said yourself you do ok with people you click with,,, same as anyone bruv!
you made a booboo with some bird, everyones done it, and the more you thought about it, the worse it got.... SO DON'T PUT ENERGY/THOUGHT INTO IT NO
just experience and learn from life, and you can't do that if your anxious and stressy, it just turns into one big viscious circle being governed by
all thought, all action is creative energy. proreact and don't react!! or sometimes its just good to tell yourself "it doesn't matter" and leave it at
that, train yourself....
here you go, meditate for half hour every moring, don't think of nothing, train yourself to keep a calm head!!
start a martial art- ju-jitsu, aikido, judo or something!!
trust me i went through freakin nightmares figuring out all this!!(there was a few other factors; ) and all it was was mountains out of molehills, its
never as bad as you think it is!!!
have a read of this- wecreatethelove.ning.com...
i hope this all helps, hope it makes sense.
u2u me if you want
edit on 9/2/11 by WHOS READY because: (no reason given)