I have been going back and forth on whether or not I should post this, because I have lost all of my friends that I've told, and everyone I know
is now labeling me psychotic. So, I suppose at this point, I have nothing to lose. I hope someone else has gone through this here.
Ok, well this whole event took place over a 3 day period (starting on 04/08/2010). None of this was planned, it all happened by chance, and I never
had this happen to me before. On April 8th, 2010, I woke up. I looked at the world around me, I looked at my job, and I looked at the trees outside. I
knew I was helping to destroy Planet Earth, and I lost my mind.
I got up from my desk, and I just left. It wasn't even five a clock yet, but I didn't care. On my way home, I thought of ways I could help to change
the planet. I thought of solutions, and said, maybe if we had better technology, maybe if everything was more green and eco-friendly, but somehow,
this didn't scratch the itch. My soul was yearning to find the purpose of existence. I decided to go on a hunger strike for myself only, I was not
going to tell any of my neighbors, friends or family. I thought that a hunger strike won't help anyone else, but maybe it could temporarily ease my
pain and angst towards "The Man" and this material world that we live in.
I decided to raise my spirits by listening to some music, and doing hoola hoop dancing, one of my hobbies. I didn't care about going back to work, in
fact, I didn't even think about work anymore, I just let it all go, and got lost in the music and dance. I lost all track of time, and I realized
that I had danced the night through. I went at it for hours, and I didn't let it bother me. I just wanted to feel good, to feel alive again.
When I finally stopped to take a break, strange stuff started happening, and this, I cannot explain. I was in the bathroom, and I felt a spirit. Now,
I have seen ghosts ever since I was a young child, and I still see them to this day, though, up until that point, not as frequently. The spirit I felt
was attacking me sexually. It was physically violating me, and asking me questions telepathically. The types of questions it asked were moral ones. I
felt as though it was playing a game of dominance with me, trying to get me to agree with him/her, but I chose to stick to the logic that I am the
guardian of my own destiny, I am of a free mind, and submit to none, but LOVE. This spirit was not of love, and I honestly felt like I was battling
against it. Fighting for my identity, it wanted me to take its logic, to conform, to bow down.
I was playing a mental chess game, and how I finally won, was to say that "I am my own God, I follow what is written in my heart, and that is Love"
As soon as I said that to myself, all of these shapes started flashing in my brain. I started seeing with my mind's eye. I learned the secrets of the
Universe in a matter of minutes! Every shape made sense. I spoke to some relatives on the other side, they told me to know that "I AM Invincible"
(well, my grandma actually said something else, she cursed like a sailor, but that is essentially what she was trying to say, haha)
I immediately wrote down the images I saw. A flood of thought rushed through my head, and something told me that everything I have seen, every image,
every movie, all of it, means something, and that I was suppose to see it. I drew a triangle on the paper, and I made the star of David, the Universe
told me that it currently operates in binary, light/dark, positive/negative, spirit/physical. I was told the Milkway has collided with the dark matter
of Andromeda, and that we are feeling the negative effects from that galaxy. We are in a Catch 22, where the positive and negative forces have
collided, and the only way to change this, is to have the positive, or spirit world flip and cover the darkness, this is the only way that the Love
can be spread. People are going to have to wake up the snake, the light in their bodies, and learn the secrets of the Universe. Once we get enough
people up, the rest will quickly follow, this is what I was told. We will fill the void with Love, like water in a pitcher.
I spoke to the Creator, the spiral, The Mother who birthed us all, The Universe, I was told that people operate and live in fear, they are afraid of
EVERYTHING, fictitious rules and authority figures, social norms, taboos, she told me that, when you come in love, there is nothing to fear. You do
what you want, be who you want, know that you live in a karmic Universe, and that you get what you give, there are no rules, but the ones you impose
on yourself. You are your own MASTER, and when you live in accordance to the natural code of the Universe, if you do not kill God's creations (i.e.
his children "us" Planet Earth..etc) then you will live in peace and be whole.
I'm not religious, and I still don't believe in religion, but I found God that day, the REAL God, and guess what? God is in all of us. It is you and
me. I KNOW this now more than ever.
Thank you for reading, and I'd love to hear your stories.
[edit on 9-6-2010 by leira7]