I suspect I was born with paranoid schizophreni in 1947.

This lead to many misunderstandings on my part when my family would discipline me. I would get on my bicycle and run away for a few hours until I could handle being around people.

This condition was probably the cause of my four failed marriages and many failed relationships.

I later developed major depression and was finally recognized as having a mental problem in the early nineties.

There is no cure for mental illness as far as I am concerned. I believe many great writers, and other artist also had mental illness.

I take medication and am thankful for having it available. It makes life bearable among the boring people.

It also helps me to understand myself and act accordingly.

I really feel like my mental condition is a gift as I am very creative. It also gives me a look into the lives of others.

To be truthful I don't believe we are a nation of sane people. What a boring life that would be.

Use what you have. Take medication and get through one day at a time.

I take Prozac and Xanax It really does help a lot.

I prefer not to be sane as it would seem to be very dull and uinexciting.

I do wonder how many really sane people there are. My guess would be not many.

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You know you can think to much... I think a lot of people give into their thoughts and it drives them mad because they don't know how to shut it up and block it out and don't understand it's not actually their thoughts and doesn't make up who they are.

Try opening your chakras

i just read your first post but after i post this i will go back and read the whole thread.
i can relate brother. i am bipolar and it has ruined me.
i don't hallucinate all the time but i have before. i cycle from manic to depressed in the course of a day. i only have 1 friend and don't really interact with people.
i do have a job but i miss a LOT of work cause of this illness.
i have not applied to disability yet but i am going too.

i can also relate to the sedating meds. i get the same deal.

hang in there man