let me explain to me dying 3 time's...
i was bad into taking all kinds of drug's i flat died 3 times before i quit.
hospital saved me ..so thanks lol
Well first time i died i was sad and depressed over life in general.
last thought i had was the above..despair worthlessness..basically depression.
When i died i was falling into a black tornado swirling vortex kinda hole..black white sparks on vortex's walls..and people crying i knew from my
life that pasted on..asking me for help saddest environment imaginable.
Because it dawns on you your dead..and you cant help them or yourself.
2nd time i was happy as can be with my family no drugs in weeks heart stopped.i was clinically dead..paramedics saved me when they arrived.
Well i was playing with my kids laughing typical loving family deal.
When i died...it was bright whitish yellow light..bright...
voices talking and wipers of choir music best was to describe the music and no fear..and just a happy feeling like everything was gonna be fine...but
i DID know i was dead that's the strange part...
I screamed for my little girl and son and my wife....All of the sudden i hear my little 3 year old girl crying daddy wake up..please and then i hear
my wife screaming and yelling/crying on a phone to paramedics..
then i got a shock it hurt....and i was pulled YES pulled out in reverse like rewinding a VHS tape..of the event's i saw and heard..
and there i was in a ambulance going to the hospital.
3rd time i died
i was fighting with a guy in walmart parking lot..
He backed out of his parking spot and never stopped just kept coming and coming..
Well i was screaming for him to stop..i had my little boy in the car 1 years old....how he came back so fast i couldn't move and he actually pinned
my cart with my 1 year old to another car before he realized.
Now he didn't hurt my baby boy..it pinned the front of the cart..BUT I WAS MAD.....
my wife grabbed the baby...up fast
i dragged the man out and beat him so bad and for so long it i broke both my hand's and one foot kicking the man..i was pissed he almost killed my
pride and joy in my life.....
But i had another heart attack as soon as i stopped and guy was passed out..lol
Well .....Yes i went to jail after all this
but worth it
When dead again i was mad..as i described...wanted to kill this guy...honestly kill him..if my heart didn't go out IDK what would have happen
I found myself in darkness with dark red everywhere..and i was scared crap less...I knew this is not the spot to be when dead...but you realize theres
nothing you can do but sit or stand...
People not like you or me..they are blue YES BLUE..
start ripping at your flesh and skin..laughing hysterical.....it hurts 100 times worse than anything i could have imagined...
screams echo in the darkness you can not see...or worry about that much because the pain is so horrible...
Then as before SHOCK........and tape rewinds in fast/slow motion and i am in the ambulance... and they tell me i was dead for over 5 minutes or
So when you do die...my theory is your final thought is what determines your afterlife...its what sling shot's you to your new reality.
Love begets love
Hate begets hate.
so on and so on.
Call em a nutjob if ya want but i am telling you from first hand experience..that you don't want to get yourself..
It's your final thought.....
So don't be scared..angry..ect.....
you get the point..hopefully