Originally posted by Alpha Grey
My mother died when I was in the Army and she would not have died if I did not go into the Army (she was doing one of my chores when she was in
an accident which led to her death.....for which I am responsible - it was my job to do...not her's....and I will never forgive myself
).......I never had a sign, not a peep, not a sound, not a shadow.....NOTHING !!......Good for you if you got a sign......but I
never did....so to me its all BS, utter crap and nonsense.
Where was my whisper of "its not your fault".......
Where was my sign from her letting me know she was ok......
Where was my dream with her talking to me........
Answer: Nowhere - Not coming - It will never come.
Know why ???......
When you die there is NOTHING.
There is NO god
There is NO devil.
There is NO afterlife.....PERIOD.
If you do not like my post...too bad...it's my opinion on this post ...like it or not.
[edit on 13-11-2006 by Alpha Grey]
It is not in any way your fault, you are not responsible, of that I am quite sure. If you had not enlisted, I feel that if it was her time, nothing
would have changed that. I have lived through things that should have killed me, and I didn't get a scratch on me. I know people who tried to end
their own lives, only to fail due to inexplicable events which stopped them even though they tried a few times in a row. The reasons why and when we
go are a mystery to me, but from what I have seen we are not at fault for others deaths unless it is a case of murder. Your mother must have been
wonderful for you to miss her so. I wish and hope that sometime soon you do get a comforting sign that you can't deny. In my case, my mom pleaded
for me to stay the night, but I chose to go home and return the next morning. Seven AM my grandma called, and I wished I had stayed so badly.
Similar circumstances happened when my stepdad died, my brother asked me to join him and visit the hospital, which meant missing work. I declined,
and he died the next day, just after my bro's visit. In that case, my guilt lasted for a few weeks, and a dream I had was what made it disappear.
In the dream, my stepdad said not to worry about it, it was okay, and when I awoke, the heavy feeling in my heart was totally gone. Maybe it was just
a dream.
I don't believe in God, but I do believe in the soul surviving physical death. Of course I don't 'know' it does.
My sympathies, Alpha Grey, and if you don't get a sign, I believe that there must be a very good reason for that. If your mom was able to send you
one, I think she would.