posted on Mar, 25 2017 @ 07:14 AM
It took MANY years to admit it.....but I have terrible anxiety too! My father had it....my brother has it.....and I suspect my other brother had it
too......he drank himself to death at age 38. My father died of esophageal cancer at age 65. My mother is a terrible alcoholic too.....she
lives.....barely. (She also has bipolar disorder too....that doesn't help!)
I am 50 years old and have done what I do for a living for over 30 years and yet I will completely choke during interviews! I just lost a GREAT
opportunity at an insurance company because I did the "frozen in the headlight" thing you describe. I was humiliated! If I get into any kind of a
situation where danger is around....whether real or imagined....I will get very strange physical symptoms: the room will spin, my heart races, I tense
up....etc.......I am a freak out waiting to happen.....
What have I done? Well.....drinking just made it worse.....and it screwed up my health and I lost about 15 years of my life.......pot (I have my
medical card) helps me sleep and helps me deal with the pain......brain drugs? DON'T believe in them, though they have been forced on me the few
times I couldn't cope and checked myself into a mental hospital for a few weeks......
Life is HARD.....not very nice sometimes.....and some of us are hypersensitive. I try not to walk off jobs...though I am trying harder to find lower
stress positions...though at my AGE, it is getting harder to find work......
I wish you the best of luck with your anxiety. You've gotten some good advice on here. I do not trust doctors because I have had VERY BAD experiences
with them.....(I also have GI issues and have had many "female" surgeries....including a complete hysterectomy for endometriosis......)
Ultimately, the goal is to live.......my brother didn't make it.....lost EVERYTHING along the way through his alcoholism...until it finally killed
him.......and my mother lives a living death......down that bottle.
Peace to you