I write this for one of two reasons. One is that I think I show classic symptoms of it in my personal life, and two, the disorder kind of interests me
because it's a disorder that causes a person to act contrary to what's expected in a social society. If you don't know what Schizoid Personality is,
here's a synopsis:
Schizoid personality disorder (SPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency towards
a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, and apathy. Affected individuals may be unable to form intimate attachments to
others and simultaneously demonstrate a rich, elaborate and exclusively internal fantasy world.:p. 706
Now, I guess a little background is required.
I have always, well, at least since I was about 11 years old, been a "loner." I mean, the type of person that could be living in your house and with
exception to seeing me and maybe occasionally hearing me answer a question when asked, you'd never even really know I was there. I am not the type of
person to sit and chit-chat about random things or joke around.
I am 39 years old. Never been married. No children. Sure, I have had a handful of girlfriends, but nothing that lasted more than a few months.
I don't develop tight personal bonds with most people, even immediate family. I mean I care about them, but the closeness just isn't there.
I don't get lonely. I mean, I have lived alone most of my adult life and it frankly does not bother me in the slightest. You know, most people can
only stand solitude for a certain amount of time. I have been known to do nothing but go to work, go home to an empty house for months on end... Never
In social situations, I tend to say little to nothing to anyone. I just constantly listen, watch and analyze. I know it's weird.
I can say it's weird because I watch how other people act, and it doesn't coincide with my actions at all.
I am not sure if I have Schizoid Personality disorder, but given it's diagnosable symptoms, I'd say it's probably a safe assumption. Maybe there is a
psychologist here at ATS that would be willing to give some feedback on this. Thank you.
edit on 21-2-2017 by SpeakerofTruth because: (no