a reply to: Abavs
I, too am sharing the feeling of being stuck in mud. I'm currently unemployed and living on my 401k because, because. These past few weeks, day after
day, I just get up and check my postings here and elsewhere and post more like this read things on internet and eat and go back to bed. That's
literally ALL I'm doing lately. I should be trying more.
I should be doing more.
I'm doing NOTHING.
And yet, I can't break out of it. Just woke up and got on here.
I find myself envious of your degree that you have going. That's so exciting to me. I would love to be an expert at something like that. I've been
working on the same "game art" drawing for months now. I'll bring up Photoshop, and often it gets closed at the end of my awake session without even
touching it. I'm so stuck. I'm so stuck.
I'm mid 40s now with the silly idea that I can make some sort of career out of this thing I can't even bring myself to do. Honestly, I think to myself
that I'm just waiting the next couple years for the money to run out and then just end it. I don't want to live to be old anyway. I haven't even been
Here's some advice that I won't take myself:
Have you experienced going to any of the big music venues or following a groove band tour? Not to suggest hallucinogens while doing so, but yes I am.
A little experimentation there is worth it. Some of the best experiences I've had. Especially if you have something called friends you can do this
They say volunteering to a cause you believe in can change your life. They say that.
Many here support getting meditative with it. Exploring the dream world through lucid dreaming. Again, they say meditation is a powerful tool to
opening up new pathways and ideas in your life. They say that. I'm considering this one if I ever stop this awful cycle.
You've already had what sounds to be some interesting experiences. I don't know how you escaped Scientology so deftly, but grats to you on that.
Bummer to hear that you've achieved within those sects only to find yourself in the same situation everyone else is in. I've considered that they
might at least have some interesting opportunities for excitement. Guess not.
To literally be an astronaut sounds like it's actually one of the most boring existences OUTside the planet. Day after day in gear and adhering to
strict procedures to just get a glimpse of us far away. I'm not clear on what you're referring to here.
Also, just as a sidenote. Why does everyone capitalize Alex Jones' name like that in posts I see around? Kind of odd that it seems so common.
Best of luck and let me know if you find anything.
edit on 16-4-2015 by gottaknow because: punctuation