Thorny Rose [Feb 2014]

Roses long wilted and missing their petals
love letters still held and sometimes read
heart ache wounds still flow blood red
words remembered and sometimes said
loud
how to feel again without bitter bile
anger cleverly disguised while
by acknowledging my failure
I sound so honest and fair
despair
creeps up on me when certain songs play
or perfume slaps my face
lost her, lost her you fool
it repeats in disgrace
mourn
what seemed like it would last
love had is better than none at all
so they say as I live on in loneliness
often buried in memories of the past
life
the future is so unknown
why can't I look at it with optimism
I hear all the encouragements as cliches
I once offered others as ointment
soothing
my soul with someday there will be someone
their scent, their beauty will rival the rose
and once again I will rejoin the living
but handling the thorny rose with more respect
valentine
you are out there
but I don't know where
just understand til then
this rose continues to bleed my heart

Thats a fantastic poem.
I entered a short poem for the first time last week .
There are so many good poets that bring their work here, but yours was special to me.

reply to post by overanocean


Thank you for stopping by and reading my poem and glad you liked it. I applaud your decision to enter as well. I will read yours as soon as I finish here.

reply to post by grayeagle


Sounds like you're having a rough patch my friend. I won't hand you any cliche's- I know you've already heard them all. What I will say is that we are here for you, your extended family, with an ear to listen and a shoulder to lean on. Bless you my friend and may these feelings you are having right now diminish and be replaced with peace and some semblance of happiness very soon! You are safe here.... let it all out as often as you need, especially as you relate your journey so beautifully!

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I have good days and bad days but they always get better when I come here to ATS. Holidays that celebrate close relationships are a little hard for me. I even have difficulty watching commercials that celebrate intimacy. I don't need a pill just a hug. Sometimes I fear I will never find a soul mate so I continue to stay busy with my art projects and writing and try not to think about it. Thanks for your kind words and peace to you my friend.

reply to post by grayeagle


For you my friend!

((((HUGS))))

reply to post by littled16


Thank you so much for the hug! It was almost tangible and you are a good hugger!

That really meant a lot to me! My mind and heart are soothed.

Peace to you my friend and a hug back at you.