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Originally posted by Unrealised
You've lied, cheated, killed and been unfaithful to your angel.
You'll have to live with those things, and if you have a conscience, you should find them hard to come to terms with.
You haven't flourished.
You have been given a beautiful flower, only to stomp it into the ground.edit on 19-7-2013 by Unrealised because: (no reason given)
Originally posted by Itisnowagain
reply to post by ExCommando
The fact that you state that you are 'not a good person' and that you 'do not deserve' reveals how successful you really are.
When one believes one is not worthy, one acts this out.
Originally posted by ExCommando
The sins are always going to be there; I don't believe in atonement. But I think I can make amends in some shape or form.
Originally posted by j.r.c.b.
reply to post by ExCommando
So sorry for the loss of your mother. I'm also sorry for the family you have cheated on., and this quote, "What's her reward? Brain cancer. What followed was 6 of the most horrible months of my life"., MOST HORRIBLE MONTHS OF YOUR LIFE??!!! Really??!! It should have been mst horrible for your mother. Your showing bit of narcissism here. You surely don't sound happy, you sound depressed over the fact that you mistreated your family, I think you should go & speak to a professional. You've done good for your country, yet you feel undeserving. I think maybe clearing your conscience & getting over some depression will go a long way.....whether your successful or not, your certainly not happy about it. I woułdnt call that successful.....I wish you well, & hope you keep us updated in your progress....please seek help, real success, is happiness............
Originally posted by 74Templar
reply to post by ExCommando
Perhaps you're looking at it backwards. You think that you don't deserve this great life/family because of the things you've done.
You do, however, know or at least believe you don't deserve it, just as you believe your mother didn't deserve to die in such terrible circumstances given the good she did in her life.
Humility can come in many forms, and obviously your mother raised you with a conscience, otherwise we wouldn't reading your thread right now. Perhaps it was her wish for you to be happy and successful, even with your shortcomings.
My condolences to you for your loss.