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The only logical answer is that there is no God,
I get that, I'll admit myself, it was horrible for our family when my mother had cancer, & again for us when my brother died suddenly at a young age.....but I just have to wonder why you feel undeserving. We all make mistakes. Try to forgive yourself & love yourself first, you have to find happiness & peace.....I would not consider you a bad person at all! Your here talking and worrying about it says a lot....have faith....
Originally posted by ExCommando
Originally posted by j.r.c.b.
reply to post by ExCommando
So sorry for the loss of your mother. I'm also sorry for the family you have cheated on., and this quote, "What's her reward? Brain cancer. What followed was 6 of the most horrible months of my life"., MOST HORRIBLE MONTHS OF YOUR LIFE??!!! Really??!! It should have been mst horrible for your mother. Your showing bit of narcissism here. You surely don't sound happy, you sound depressed over the fact that you mistreated your family, I think you should go & speak to a professional. You've done good for your country, yet you feel undeserving. I think maybe clearing your conscience & getting over some depression will go a long way.....whether your successful or not, your certainly not happy about it. I woułdnt call that successful.....I wish you well, & hope you keep us updated in your progress....please seek help, real success, is happiness............
Appreciate your comments.
When I said most horrible of my life; it was. I could speak in dual terms, but I'm here talking about my feelings and thoughts on "why". If I was writing about my mothers experience, I would explain how terrible it was for her.
I'm not depressed, and nor am I suffering from depression. I'm simply using this forum to explore the ideas of righteousness, evil, reward and punishment. All of which don't seem interconnected even in the slightest.
Originally posted by Akragon
reply to post by fiftyfifty
The only logical answer is that there is no God,
Quite the contrary actually... There are many "gods"... Those being entities that are more "spiritually advanced" then humans are...
There is also a god of this world.... And he is not on the side of the good...
The god of this world is evil... and he's documented in the Old testament...
Originally posted by Unrealised
Yesterday is history.
Originally posted by ExCommando
reply to post by CitizenJack
It's definitely changed my perspective on a lot of things.
I've sold my business, and we are moving overseas for a few years as a family to enjoy the simpler things in life.
I finally understand that money and success breeds an innate greed which then wants more, and more, and more; you're never satisfied with your lot, and you start to covet even more.
Guess that's what life is all about, experiences. What we chose to do with those experiences then defines us, and if we're wise enough, we can learn, embrace, and grow into better people.
The sins are always going to be there; I don't believe in atonement. But I think I can make amends in some shape or form.
www.biblebelievers.com...
Sometimes He will even use the tragedy of one to bring OTHERS to Christ. Such is the case with Lazarus in John chapter eleven. Lazarus was very sick, but before he ever died Jesus said that his sickness was "for the glory of God" (Jn. 11:2-4). Later, in John 11:45, we read that ". . . . many of the Jews which came to Mary, and had seen the things which Jesus did, believed on him." We also read in John 12:11 that many believed on the Lord Jesus Christ BECAUSE OF LAZARUS. Had Lazarus not suffered and died, these people may never have come to know the Lord Jesus Christ. You see, God was in complete control. Jesus KNEW that Lazarus was sick, but He chose not to go and heal him (Jn. 11:6). He had a REASON for the sorrow and death in the family of Lazarus. No one suffers in vain. God always has a reason, and sometimes He is trying to show someone their need to receive the Lord Jesus Christ. Could this be true in your own life? Think about it. Could the Lord be convicting you of the fact that you are a sinner, and you need to be saved?
34.5 Questioner: If an entity develops what is called a karma in an incarnation, is there then programming that sometimes occurs so that he will experience catalyst that will enable him to get to a point of forgiveness thereby alleviating the karma?
Ra: I am Ra. This is, in general, correct. However, both self and any involved other-self may, at any time through the process of understanding, acceptance, and forgiveness, ameliorate these patterns. This is true at any point in an incarnative pattern. Thus one who has set in motion an action may forgive itself and never again make that error. This also brakes or stops what you call karma.
34.4 Questioner: Thank you. Would you define karma?
Ra: I am Ra. Our understanding of karma is that which may be called inertia. Those actions which are put into motion will continue using the ways of balancing until such time as the controlling or higher principle which you may liken unto your braking or stopping is invoked. This stoppage of the inertia of action may be called forgiveness. These two concepts are inseparable.
Originally posted by ExCommando
Why do the good suffer, and I succeed?
Originally posted by ExCommando
I want to be honest.
I'm not a good person. I've cheated, lied, been unfaithful. I've killed (for my country, but let's keep it real, I pulled the trigger).
And yet, after all of this, I'm rewarded with huge financial and business success; I have a wife I don't deserve, and a perfect, gorgeous baby girl. I've got it all.
On the flip side, my mother; the light of my life. Devoted her life to spreading the word of God; she spent years working in orphanages in the darkest reaches of the world. She gave tirelessly of herself, and not a person who met her wasn't changed in some way for the good.
What's her reward? Brain cancer. What followed was 6 of the most horrible months of my life. She spent the whole time in the hospice bed ridden, in pain, and ever so slowly lost her body, mind and spirit.
The last 24 hours she lay there gasping for breath, until she suffocated to death with me by her side.
How does this make sense? I've never really believed in a God or a higher power, and this only furthers my opinion.
Good people suffer, while those of us with darkness inside of us flourish.
I just don't get it.
Originally posted by ExCommando
reply to post by CitizenJack
It's definitely changed my perspective on a lot of things.
I've sold my business, and we are moving overseas for a few years as a family to enjoy the simpler things in life.
I finally understand that money and success breeds an innate greed which then wants more, and more, and more; you're never satisfied with your lot, and you start to covet even more.
Guess that's what life is all about, experiences. What we chose to do with those experiences then defines us, and if we're wise enough, we can learn, embrace, and grow into better people.
The sins are always going to be there; I don't believe in atonement. But I think I can make amends in some shape or form.
Karma is a bitch and will often build an evil person up before knocking him down. You could lose everything tomorrow or in ten years. But believe me, you will lose in the end unless you repair your Karma. And the only way to do that is through love. Your Mum may have brain cancer but by the life she's led, I'm willing to guess she's been a million times happier than you, with all your success. If you were happy with yourself you wouldn't be coming on ATS and telling strangers you're a bad person.
Originally posted by ExCommando
I want to be honest.
I'm not a good person. I've cheated, lied, been unfaithful. I've killed (for my country, but let's keep it real, I pulled the trigger).
And yet, after all of this, I'm rewarded with huge financial and business success; I have a wife I don't deserve, and a perfect, gorgeous baby girl. I've got it all.
On the flip side, my mother; the light of my life. Devoted her life to spreading the word of God; she spent years working in orphanages in the darkest reaches of the world. She gave tirelessly of herself, and not a person who met her wasn't changed in some way for the good.
What's her reward? Brain cancer. What followed was 6 of the most horrible months of my life. She spent the whole time in the hospice bed ridden, in pain, and ever so slowly lost her body, mind and spirit.
The last 24 hours she lay there gasping for breath, until she suffocated to death with me by her side.
How does this make sense? I've never really believed in a God or a higher power, and this only furthers my opinion.
Good people suffer, while those of us with darkness inside of us flourish.
I just don't get it.
Originally posted by borntowatch
The reward for the righteous in Christ is not earthly.