reply to post by maya27
Thank you maya! It was a great night because it was my wife who pointed out the light in the sky and it was she who asked me to explain what it was we
were seeing.
Last year I made a bad mistake in talking so openly about what I had seen. I spoke to my wife and my eldest daughter because they had showed a passing
interest in the UFO phenomenon so when I actually had a story to tell I had expected to be heard with an open mind. Instead I was an embarrassment and
this got worse when my friends mentioned to me that I seemed a little odd sometimes or that my mind was elsewhere. When I told them why, this
“why” went down like a lead balloon.
I spoke my my brother about it and he mentioned that we had seen a UFO in Guyana in 1978. I had always thought I had been dreaming but he shook his
head and told me that we had watched it together inside the trees of the jungle on the southern outer perimeter of a GDF base (near the pig farm) in
port Kaituma where we lived at the time, and that the UFO had been very real – like a boiled red sweet glowing from the inside. To this day I still
remember it as a dream.
My brother is an officer in the British army who worked his way up from the private ranks and is not in any way prone to flights of fancy. He advised
me that if I saw what I saw then why should I alter my story to suit others because they are giving in to fear or ignorance? He was right of
course.
My wife and my daughter said they were worried about me at the time and maybe I might be putting myself in danger by talking so openly about what I
had seen. Of course me being me I was undeterred anyway because I am not worried about someone visiting me to threaten me to keep quiet because I am
not one to let myself be threatened.
So, I kept on banging away about what I had seen. I explained what I had seen to the friends who had mentioned a change in my demeanour and it came
back and bit me when they took my wife aside and urged her to get me some professional help.
Utterly ridiculous of course, my state of mind did seem to become rather peculiar I will admit that, and I cannot really explain it but there was
definitely a kind of emotional response to the UFOs I had watched in 2008. I am quite in touch with my feelings in any case but when the UFOs finally
disappeared I was doing everything but gibber like a gibbon and I was left with an incredibly powerful sense of peace, relief, affection perhaps even
love.
These are just words and I cannot adequately explain or describe the emotion I felt during and right after the sighting other than to say that I had
never felt such a feeling. The closest I have come was seeing my daughters born or during intense periods of successful meditation. These days I am
left with a feeling akin to a craving, like a scratch in the back of my mind I have no chance to understand.
You know if you go without minerals for a time you get a strange craving for something but at the same time you do not know what it is that will take
the craving away? That is the feeling I have and I notice it when I am in the dark, alone and thinking. I am not delusional; I am as lucid as you are
or the man living next door. I am just at a loss to know what it is that is making my mind itch but I am happy to know that one day I will be able to
scratch it.
The UFO event consumed me and before I knew it my marriage was in trouble, my 20 year old daughter was worried about aliens and I decided to do the
honourable thing and move out with my dog to a small one bedroom apartment on the outskirts of Edinburgh to allow everyone to regain their
equilibrium.
I could have just done what everyone wanted me to do and deny what I had seen but at the time as it is now that idea was not an option. I will go to
my grave, telling anyone who will listen that what I saw was a fact and not the figment of my imagination and if someone wants me to shut up I will
tell them to take a hike.
I am glad you had someone with you to witness what you saw. It is important for many reasons to have a second opinion on these things and to have your
son with you must have been a grand thing for you. Prior to my own UFO sighting last year I had been quite sceptical also though I had an open mind
and was ready to believe.
Of course I am now a believer and no longer a sceptic thankfully because of experiences of things I had never expected to come my way even though I
had dreamed of it. We are lucky to have been able to see what we saw. Such a blast of realty from things that we are told via media and peers are
naught but fantasy – such irony lol
It seems we might have seen the same thing though I did not get the same “psychic” feeling on the second sighting like I did with the first.
However that said, I was standing there looking up at this thing with a huge grin and after it went away I was bouncing down the road like a teenager.
I even had to stop myself from making “inyerfaceinyerface” gestures to my wife who looked like she had seen a ghost. For days I was as high as a
kite and she was a quite as a lamb... Great times!
You mention the psychic element and that is a good addition and also very odd that you would say that because I have been sleeping a lot more, and my
dreams are now very vivid. I wake up midway through the night often and on checking my alarm it tends to be around 03:00 or later. My dreams have a
detailed theme of world change, sometimes they are apocalyptic but as far as I can recall they are laden with a theme of no change without pain.
Last night my wife said I stopped breathing and she was so concerned she checked my breath to find I was breathing so lightly that I could not be
heard easily. I remember dreaming last night of flying over a rocky undulating ground like the scree faces of the highlands and the cairngorms in
particular.
My wife and I have always had a certain habit of knowing what the other is going to say before the other says it and we have premempted each other
quite a few times.
More so since last year.
[edit on 11-11-2009 by SmokeJaguar67]