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Originally posted by CirqueDeTruth
Originally posted by Unity_99
reply to post by CirqueDeTruth
Do self regression via mediation and asking questions, and using free will to intend and seek. You get answers.
Weeelllll, here's the thing...
I'm afraid of opening 'Pandora's Box' if you will.
In lucid dreaming I am even very cautious when things 'intrude' upon my space. The slightest feeling of trepidation and I will either banish the intrusion, or abruptly pull myself out of the astral.
My mother tells me, it's the 'grounding instinct' mothers have when their young are still' very young. She assures me my trepidation will ease as my children get older and are better able to shield themselves from influences I may invite into our space. I'm Leary and doubtful, as how can one really shield anyone from such forces? So I do believe I take comfort in not remembering.
Another aspect of myself is automatic writing. I struggle with the notions such as, is it all me, from my own head? And some of the resulting gibberish I pull from automatic writing is just down right frustrating. If I cannot make sense of it, what's the point? It is these sort of self doubts that plague me on my own spiritual journey., and my perceptions of what am experiencing.
But I am only in my thirties. I have plenty of time to work it out., and plenty of time to return to my spiritual and occult dabbling when my children are older. For now, much of it I have shelved and put away - until my children are older. Of course, I still study and talk of such things, but I am not overtly active in it currently. Well with the exception of automatic writing, which I've been doing since as long as I can remember starting around the Ade of twelve/thirteen. Right around the same time my sleepwalking became less often. Hmmm. That's the first time I correlated that. In fact a month or to ago, I'd stopped doing automatic writings and my sleep walking returned.
This thread just gave me an epiphinany!!!
... I have a strange fascination with the constellation Orion.
I loved the winter months since it meant Orion was coming back