Originally posted by michael1983l
Have you ever thought that questioning everything you see and battling against tptb is just too energy draining? Has the thought never crossed your
mind that it might just be easier to be one of the sheep and conform? Will your life actually work out any different if you did?
I might need help here but I am having a period of loss of faith in conspiracies in general, maybe I just need some of you guys to get me back on
track. But at the moment, all reading conspiracies seems to bring me is sadness, not just for me but the whole human race. They say that ignorance is
bliss, if I just lived my life conforming and being ignorant, would I not lead a better quality of life because I will be less stressed?
Is it easier to be a sheep and conform? That implies that you realize there are things in place that are driving us to conform (not conspiracies--but
actualities--even if we/you aren't 100% sure of what they are, who's leading them, and to what purpose). SOMETHING'S wrong with the world, the
society, the gov't, media, economy, etc., you know it and you know you are encouraged to stay in your own little patch of the sheep farm with your
head down, satisfied, quiet, and busy chewing...branded and owned.
And you are wondering if there is any reason to not graze in that corner and stop worrying about something you can't quite pin down, can't quite get
your head around. Not having the answers, not having the definitive, absolute answers is enough to drive any slightly awakened sheep mad.
And, not knowing what to do about "it"--whatever all of it is--is so defeating and disheartening...that you look around at the those who never
question a darn thing and are concerned only with the next new film in theaters, what the Kardashian's are up to, what fast food to pick up, who's
winning the upcoming baseball/basketball/football championship, and what does FOX, CNN, etc. think about X, Y and Z...and you wonder, "maybe they got
it right." They seem happy, or happier, than you. They have blind faith in their religion of choice, their doctors and big pharma, their gov't
leaders, their media personalities...so why shouldn't you? Maybe you can go back and enter the fold and be buoyed up by that collective buzz.
I've thought of this often. I've been questioning everything since I was a little kid. I looked around me in disbelief and wondered how people
didn't see what I saw. And, even now, as an adult, I sometimes secretly wish that I could be "blind" again so I wouldn't have to feel this
fatigue, sadness, anger, and frustration. Once awakened, you can't go back, you can only do the "fake conformity" thing that we all have to do to
some degree or another, depending on your job, family and financial situation, country, etc.
That fatigue seems to come from thinking so much, so hard, studying, reading, discussing, visiting sites like ATS, and still not knowing. It sucks not
knowing the whole picture. It sucks not knowing what to do to help change the world. It sucks not knowing what is coming next. And it sucks to be
thought of by "society" as a conspiracy kook (even if no one really knows that you question things--you know that you do, and you know that they
mean people like "you" when they are calling us conspiracy nuts).
Yes, I do conform in the majority of my life. Many of us do. I have an education, corporate job, mortgage. I put a lot of energy into pretending that
all this is meaningful, and that all this is going to continue as is, in an unsustainable economic system.
Maybe it's not about "believing in conspiracies" but rather, knowing that there is more going on than we are allowed to see--and the ATS forum,
videos, books--are all a way to help us keep looking for clues. On the other side of it, maybe it's also about putting as much energy into our own
physical, emotional, mental and spiritual selves as possible--so we can be as healthy, sound, centered, loving, prepared, compassionate and
intelligent as we can be. And, to take action in ways that contribute to the world in meaningful ways, despite whatever the heck is going on.
Thank you for your post.