a reply to: chetinglendalevillage
Since you are a psychotherapist, I can give you some information on the demonic realm and a few hints that you are dealing with something of more than
a psychological nature. I am a Psychology major and am also seeking a spiritual path that will make me virtuous, happy, and noble, and give me the
ability to perform exorcism safely, correctly, and effectively.
I was also either obsessed or outright possessed, but I'm not quite sure which. Either way, God sent whatever it was packing so it's okay.
Here is what happened in my case: I was involved with occultism due to being dejected and angry, I was power-seeking and I got power, but almost was
destroyed on every level in the process. The two things I'd gotten into were Builders of the Adytum as an associate member and the Entered Apprentice
degree of Freemasonry. I'm not quite sure which of these is worse, but I'm leaning towards BOTA. Especially considering nothing seems malicious
whatsoever, except for one curious sentence in the lesson about one of the Tarot cards (the Devil) It begins by saying that the Devil does not exist,
and then curiously later in the same lesson says something like ". . . and was later incorporated into Set and other notions of His Satanic Majesty".
Seems like a lot of reverence given to something that supposedly doesn't exist.
I basically became obsessed with the idea that I was damned to Hell forever with no hope of redemption, and started in the process trying to make the
most absurd and FOOLISH deals with God to save myself. I was really drawn to some idiotic Gematria website trying to figure out my fate, and saw
things like 'deadly sin of raping children', 'horrible murderer'.
I was in such a state of severe panic from this delusion that I would say something like 'God this can all be true if you just save my soul if I do. .
. ." and then I would give myself some idiotic test that absolutely no-one in that state of anxiety could pass, like reading the entire Bible in one
Things from that just got progressively worse. HERE ARE THE SIGNS THAT I EXHIBITED, AND ARE STRONG HINTS THAT YOU ARE DEALING WITH A DEMON OR
- The fear of speaking. I had the delusion that speaking would actually make all my other delusions true, like I was 'speaking something into
reality'; so I was terrified to talk at times
- THE FEAR OF SAYING THE NAME JESUS OR JESUS CHRIST. This is a big one. Demons don't want their victims interacting with strong spiritual forces for
- The fear of walking through doorways. This somewhat rings a bell, maybe a particular demon does this.
- The delusion that if I ate food or drank water, I'd become the antichrist. This is a delusion to try and get you to slowly kill yourself. I lost 30
lbs in around a few weeks to a month, and probably would have died if I wasn't in the hospital. This serves a twofold purposes, the pain and suffering
they cause you, and the pain and suffering they cause those who care about you.
- Essentially every action that I performed had some sort of delusion attached to it when it got bad enough. This is an attempt of the demon to
entirely rob one of their free will.
- The ability to see 'them'. This is hard to explain. Any very spiritually advanced person will know exactly what I mean by this.
- Almost forgot one of the most important ones; had to edit and add
. THE FEAR OF PRAYING. I was deluded into thinking that anytime I prayed, my
prayers would go to the devil instead of the Lord. Again, demons do not want you praying to a force that will not hesitate to remove them.
How it ended: I was extremely delusional, I'd lost the ability to sleep, though I started eating again. I remember having the delusion: if you try to
sleep in this bed, you give your soul to Satan! Probably a strong one, because he knew he was getting cast out if he didn't strike enough fear into
me. I'd believed it, but I thought I'd lost and had no hope. When in this completely vulnerable state, the demon was cast out overnight. There was no
exorcism or any type of ritual that I'm aware of; it was pure Divine Mercy.
The really strange thing about this is that as many human demons I'd encountered, I'd seen some righteous ones trying to help me as well. I'm not
quite sure what exactly they were, but I met at least 2 people at that time claiming to be Angels. There was a very interesting man I'd encountered
too. I think he was what they call in Buddhism a Bodhisattva. He seemed to know exactly what was happening, and was sort of in the hospital with me on
a mission. He never directly said anything peculiar that I recall, except for this: They were trying to get me to eat when I was hospitalized and a
nurse asked me if I wanted some pancakes. He was talking (or pretending to?) talk on the phone, he looked directly at me and said: 'Several", with
much conviction and authority. Other than this he was silent, but I have a strong conviction that he knew exactly what was happening, and was there to
I believe only people that fall into sin can become possessed or obsessed, but demons will try their hardest to turn you into an absolute monster.
There is a very high chance of demonic activity in Holmes' case, I pray that he is forgiven. I do not quite know how strong of a hold it had on him or
what it did; either caused strong delusion and he thought he had to do it, and if it outright controlled him. To anyone reading this, it's not James
Holmes you hate; it's what was controlling him that you hate.
edit on 31-1-2016 by RedeemedThroughChrist because: Almost forgot important point