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Birth pangs, is what I see here. There's usually this kind of pain when change is to occur. You questioning yourself and your convictions can be pretty darn liberating. I've gone through the motions myself, I was a "true Christian" but then I questioned all of it, constantly asked to "know God" and then I went for a ride and was shown the different facets of that religion: it's history, it's conspiracy, it's words. Seen the repression, the atrocities, seen deception. What I discovered also is that I learned something about myself from all of that exploring. It's like I watered the seed and an amazing plant burst forth. The fruit is sweet and nurturing. So I no longer consider myself "a Christian", but I've learned to look at most schools of thought and religion (like Buddhism, Gnosticism, Hinduism, Taoism, Metaphysics ... etc.). I'm more compassionate and loving because of this journey, and liberated - the fruit is good.
Originally posted by FlyersFan
Originally posted by Iamschist
As for faith, mine was strong before, during and after. God and I have a relationship, deep and abiding. I do not question or blame. When I was young and tragedy struck, yes I railed, over time I got my answers and came to grips with my anger.
I believed in a loving Father-God. I was a praise-god person. What I've gone through has made me deeply question that. What I've had to go through has weakened my faith in Him .. not made it stronger. I'm seeing a lot of what looks like useless suffering .. for me .. and for a lot of other people. And I definately am questioning and blaming ... I know there is a God .. I'm just not sure anymore that He is who they say He is ...
So in this case .. that which hasn't killed me has weakened my faith.
Originally posted by bekisu
reply to post by absolutely
Hey...um could you clarify? I'm having a hard time following. Could you maybe phrase this another way? I don't want to respond to it until I'm sure I understand the message you are trying to relay.
Are you saying that believing there is a lesson to be learned in some kind of experience would in fact not make you stronger, because you're relying on the belief that there is a lesson to be learned when there may not be?