I've been seeing visions, short movie like scenes as well for the past 6 years now. I can seldom identify what I see or place it in some meaningful
context. Sometimes they are earthly scenes, sometimes they look quite alien. Several times I've seen non human beings, yellow eyes and lightbrown
complexion, very white/blueish with black shiny eyes, even different kind of spaceships. But mostly it's about humans.
Just last night I suddenly saw a short movie of a car pulling over and 2 people stepping out and running in a direction. I can remember the details
quite well but I never choose to continue watching it, more the opposite where I've learned myself some techniques to convince myself I am where I am
and I shouldn't be seeing those scenes.
At first I went through fear and anxiety, dread feelings because of loss of control over something I've always had control over. In the past I used to
visualize a lot at will, whenever people told me something, or while doing homework and later work related. Which helps me since I work in IT and
visualizing IT infrastructure allows me to easily maintain or troubleshoot them. But because of different reasons I lost that will which made the
visualizations come and go without me doing anything to invoke it.
Some of the techniques I use is seeing myself as energy attached to my physical body through an energy body. This energy body is made up of different
parts just like the physical, it can go places and transmit back to whatever remains back at my physical body. Because of neglecting/trying to deny
this for years my energy body just goes about the place like it's programmed but not by my own choices, I have to keep telling myself each day I must
see myself being wherever my physical body is in order to prevent the visions.
So now I'm trying to make up for all those years I didn't do anything about it by formulating what is happening to me each day and trying to make
sense out of it (not the actual scenes, just the whole process). The more I become accustomed to it the better I function in daily life and so I gain
more control over it. It takes a lot of time for which one doesn't receive much (in fact most of it would be classified as a mental disease by others)
but it is never boring and really there's not much of a choice.
I wish the OP good luck in trying to regain control over that part of you which appears to me to be somewhere else.
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