reply to post by julia53
Hey there,yes it would a feeling of:well,recognition,is the best way to put it-whilst in the dream,while its not lucid dreaming,there's a sense of
recognising the nature of the "dream" and "be careful now,veeery careful-you are in dangerous territory".Also a certain nostalgia,which remains
afterwards.This is Difficult to explain-i would assume its because my old childhood home often is incorporated in this suspected screen dream.
And its in this old childhood home,that i first had,at a very young age,experiences which will Not fade from memory-they are just Too bizarre-Too
inexplicable-and the "normal paranormal"
explanations would'nt explain it either.Although there were lots of palpable spirit presence in that house-the spirit(s) were present day and
night,i knew what that felt like,unpleasant it was,but one gets used to anything.As you get to be an older child,and young teen,it becomes a type of
"background noise" like if you work in a noisy factory.These bizarre experiences would,in hindsight and with research on the abduction
phenomena,point to such a situation.
You know i didnt mention that the two people who claimed to be "the babies that grew up" had the faces of two people we know in the town-they
are'nt friends whom we socialise with,but me+the hubby like both people(a married couple younger than us) very much.I especially like the woman,she
is a hardworking,very friendly,decent young woman,pretty,vibrant and a very good mother.Her kids are in the same school as my son,we gave them a
kitten from my cat's litter even.Of all the folks we know,hers is a face that should inspire trust in me,in a dream.Gladness to see her,absolutely no
fear or any negative feeling is present towards this young woman in real life,in fact like i said,i admire both her and her husband,hardworking salt
of the earth types,and i like her tremendously much-she just brings a smile to my face whenever i see her-a really nice decent person.
As she said to me in the dream that they are the babies that grew up,she even hugged me brieflyin the dream:but all i thought and instinctively felt
was-"NO.No you are to be avoided at all costs,i have to get Out of here" My honest impression? Malevolence,pure malevolence,that if "she" wanted
to,she could consume me as food,and if "she" wanted to,it would be with teeth as sharp as razors.And consume not just the flesh.I know how childish
But its like these dreams bring out something on a very primal level,and that is another difference in how i can for myself perceive that its "one of
those".On a spiritual level it seems to elicit a response too-like,a deepseated DISGUST,alarm bells of grave and imminent danger to my whole
being,soul included.Ive thought about it afterwards at length-and what rang truest for me is this: A terror,at soul level,of being
ABSORBED/ASSIMILATED,if that makes any sense what so ever?Or contamination,idk.Sorry it is So difficult to describe,and some things one sense or feel
just dont make it into the translation into text form.
Btw,these days,i do check myself.Not obsessively,every single day,all over,but i check the areas like face and neck,arms,legs,usually in the few hours
after waking up.Its gotten to be a sort of habit,though to be honest,some days i just don't feel like it,then i don't bother.The other day i found
an unexpected surprise,well it was'nt a nice feeling-there was suddenly on my left arm,an "old scar" that i never had-almost like an old
innoculation scar.But i have my innoc scar from primary school,its the only one i had,we all got that one in school in the 70's in SA,it was a
whopper.That innoc where it looks like about 5 needles are being used at once,you know? The primary school was a Vale of Tears that day,i recall :-D
The new innoc scar is not in a place on an arm where one gets innoculated,anyway.Then a few days after discovering it, there was a red needlemark
inside that new old scar -next day-gone.So yeah some days i just dont want to know.Some days i will take a pic of the mark or bruise,some days it
seems an obscene thing to do,for some reason.Like the needlemark-i took a pic of the new old scar-but on the day of the needlemark,i thought about it
and just felt a sick feeling,so i did'nt.Besides its really pointless,i guess.
Re the "little personlet-thingy" it was mostly disgust,like a spider the size of a cat behind one's back-unclean-just a horrible,horrible
feeling,but there was fear too-on the whole,such a brief moment-but it would take a nanosecond to know one has to GTFO-i have an even briefer memory
of making for my bedroom door,or wanting to-then nothing.But it was recalled immediately when i woke up,and i wont be forgetting it again,either.
About the IRV,may i send you a pm?There's something very specific about some one i saw during such,that i would rather like your opinion on,if its