posted on Nov, 1 2011 @ 12:53 PM
Greetings fellow earth dwelling mystics.
It is a great pleasure to read your posts and to know that there others who follow a path of constant learning, tolerance and Earth love. I dream of
someday actually living in a community of people such as yourselves, sharing, learning and strengthening our respective paths.
I believe doing that in the context of a school (old world version) would be fabulous...
a little about me:
I came to paganism later in life. After roughly 30 years of hardcore atheism (christianity just seemed silly) and during a particularly difficult
period in my life, i discovered the Tarot. The investigation of which has led me places i never knew even existed, starting with a series of intense
nightmares. i believe that the true Tarot contains within it all we (humanity) know about ourselves and how we fit into the larger mystical
environment... and that it is mostly misunderstood. I hope that after a coupla more decades of observation, learning and thought, i might understand
it with some confidence.
Did you know that Astrology first fell out of favor during the European Renaissance. At the time there was a powerful planetary conjunction in
Pisces. Most of the resident 'astrologers' predicted massive floods: Pisces is a water sign, right? Well. no floods: obviously.... and so
astrology fell. Looking back on that period from the vantage point of 500 years, we can see that the conjunction in Pisces spoke of a powerful
creative upwelling (creativity is an aspect of the mystical "water" element). This upwelling expressed itself (among other ways) in the invention
of perspective drawing and the creation (in western culture) of "zero" and "infinity" (which eventually led to the Calculus).
i am also a licensed mechanical engineer, inventor, artist and performer..and to people such as yourselves, i call myself a mystical scientist: sort
of a modern day Alchemist. i believe that evidence of the mystical can be measured in the physical. Someday, i think i might be able to prove this,
but much learning, still, i have to do. In the mean time, i am learning to trust my feelings and observe the world as openly as possible, keeping in
mind that many ideas are incorrect, and that truth is always reflected in many places/ways.
Just this year (after 14 more years of life, study, growth and the development of a daily yoga/prayer practice - i call Gaia my God) i experienced
something truly amazing and profound (to me).
Let me start by saying that i adhere to the idea that the path to personal growth lies along the avenues of fear.... that it is in the facing of
one's fears that discovery and growth happen and true balance can be achieved. The old school Pagan teachings (in all their various colors and
flavors) give us a context to place this balance within.
So, in January of this year i accidentally entered the flow of Gaia's mind, and that experience has changed me forever. i am still discovering the
ways in which i have changed. I have not the space in this post to share that story completely, but will take the time if others express curiosity.
The short of it, is that for two weeks, i could tell what every human around me was feeling, could respond to their true meaning rather than simply
the words spoken. For two weeks, the quality of my thinking was changed and i could understand and visualize amazing ideas. For two weeks i had the
patience of a Jedi coupled with a readiness for action that amazed me.
i miss the patience the most.
Anyway, during that period, fell in love with Gaia...and i really have no idea where that will take me, but i follow that path gladly.
... sometime with a bit more confusion and doubt than is comfortable...
and it is increasingly difficult to participate in this fabricated cold mechanical logical world we have confined ourselves to.
seeing your words gives me hope