i cant understand all these suicidal kids.
i had no real friends at all, and was treated like # every single day for 12 years. i was picked on, called names, slapped around, humiliated. it took
a long time to get over all of it and stop being so damn socially awkward.
but not once did i ever consider suicide..... i thought about bringing a baseball bat to school and knocking all their teeth in several times, lol.
but still, deep down maybe im just crazy, but i LOVED them all. i knew them all, i knew they were human beings, and that they were idiots. i knew they
had their own problems. not sure where that little voice came from but its always been there whispering away in the back of my mind. "get the hell
over it" lol
and every day as soon as it was time to go home, nothing that happened during the day mattered while i was with my family. they where my support, my
rock, my solid foundation. by middle school i was pretty much split personality, at school i was a zombie, head down, barreling through the day from
one assignment to the next, letting the personal attacks bounce right off me.. when i got home i became a human being again, laughing talking having
fun with my family.
thats one thing ive noticed about these parents, they all talk like they had no idea what to do.. thats freaking ridiculous, but more importantly i
think it explains what the real problem is.
i never bothered telling my parents about the crap i put up with at school, and they never asked or had an opportunity to try to help.
but could you imagine if you told your family, the ones who are supposed to raise you and protect you, that youre having a problem with other
CHILDREN, and your own ADULT parents have no idea how to help you? can you imagine how powerless that would make you feel? its freaking insane.
it makes me wonder what else these supposed adults were deficient in... i mean my parents were old stoners from the early 70s, they spent most of my
childhood zoned out watching television.. and yet they raised me no problem.
the kids today, when did their parents grow up? early 90s? are these the kids of the grunge generation/gen x?
good lord..... i think that may be the real problem here.... they probably are ACTUAL zombies, all emotions fried out from all the coke they were
snorting as teenagers in the 80s.
edit on 27-9-2011 by BohemianBrim because: (no reason given)