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I began experiencing sleep paralysis at around age 16 while in high school in Southern California. It would happen in my own bed as well as other
places I fell asleep.
I would experience sleep paralysis quite frequently from ages 16 to 21, and the experiences were most intense at ages 19-20, which was a time I was
deeply involved in the Christian church lifestyle. I'm now 32 and I rarely have it happen now. It's been at least 3-4 years.
Normally I would wake up paralyzed but still able to see the room around me in reality. Whatever dream/nightmare I was having at the time of waking
would still be going on, the images/people from my dream would be all around me in the room. It was like my dreams were crossing into the real world.
I would wake up paralyzed and be able to see things in reality, like the time on a clock. If the clock said 2:36am when I awoke paralyzed, it would
still say 2:36 when I snapped out of it and regained control of my body.While frozen, I could also see if someone else in the house was passing by,
and I would try to yell for help but I couldn't. The only thing I could do was blink my eyes and breathe.I also felt that my involuntary breathing
was disabled, and I had to actually think and concentrate to breathe. This was the scariest part. There was one occasion when I decided to not think
about breathing while paralyzed, and I felt like I was suffocating after a few seconds.
When I was 19, I moved into a house with a group of Christian friends, and I began going to church regularly and striving to live the Christian
lifestyle, along with my friends. I was "saved" one Sunday night and my roommates were ecstatic. I lived this lifestyle for about a year before
moving out of the house at age 20, and at that point I stopped going to church and striving to live the Christian lifestyle.
In that year of dedication to the Christian faith I started to have much more intense experiences with sleep paralysis. I would wake up paralyzed and
see strange, sometimes horrifying entities in my bedroom at the "Christian" house. One time the lion face on the giant blanket covering my window
started talking to me (though I couldn't understand what it was saying). Another time a creature entered my room that was my girlfriend from the
waist up, but appeared to be a centaur with a beast or animal body from the waist down.
While living at the house I also would wake up on my feet, screaming in either the hall bathroom or my roommate's room across the hall. This would
wake up everyone in the house and was particularly scary for my roommate across the hall, who would wake up to me terrified and screaming standing at
the foot of his bed. In these instances, I wouldn't be able to remember anything about what I was dreaming about or why I was screaming, and I would
have no recollection of ever leaving my bed.
The sleep paralysis incidents would happen for at least 2-3 years after I moved out of that house. There was one more terrifying sighting I had at the
place I moved after that house, when I woke up and for a fraction of a second my roommate appeared to shape shift into a giant gear-like creature with
tentacles. That was the last time I had a "vision", at age 21.
I saw my doctor and he said I was experiencing cataplexy, and that he had the same problem when he was younger. He said it would eventually go away,
and for the most part it has in my adulthood. I had my last experience with "cataplexy" in my late 20s.
When paralyzed, I couldn't do anything but blink my eyes and try to breathe. I always felt that I had to summon an inner strength from deep within to
break out of the frozen state. The one time I didn't try to summon the inner strength was the time I felt I was suffocating, which compelled me to
summon the strength.
I am no longer religious and haven't been in more than 10 years. At age 32, my beliefs are constantly evolving and changing, but I don't subscribe
to any religion.
If something was contacting me, it never said anything I could comprehend, but displayed terrifying visuals . The experience always felt dreadfully
negative. I can't sleep in complete darkness to this day.These sleep paralysis episodes were one of the main reasons I stopped going to church and
living with my religious friends.