reply to post by RevelationGeneration
1. How old was you when it first happened / which area was you located?
First time it was about when i was 16-17 years old and that repeats then almost every night, maybe during one month. At the beginning im was so scared
- dont want to go bed, but then im learn overcome that fear and litlle by little have control it.
Later came to mind, something similar happened once if im about 9-10.
My location is Northern-Europe, Estonia.
2. How long has it been going on/does it still happen?
After then im able to control it and even do willfully provoke that happen, then its happened less and less nights. That's ability almost passed, but
happened again 2-3 times per year, and so today also, it happens and im middle aged now. But its only lightly scary and besides feared, im eagerly
dive my dreams.
3. What you saw (if anything).
4. What happened?
The first cases and at the beginning i felt more than saw - and im felt paralysis, thats began at legs and spreads upwards my body. That was too much
scary, but im not able to do nothing. I thought im rapidly struggling and screaming, but if that pass - blanket was in order.
Paralysis was like mild electricity buzzing, but my mind feels like my body would be vulnerable at every direction. Thats scares most - not only from
above, but anywhere.
Despite fears, my mind was clear and i started thinking - what could happen more or im only just scared. Not at first case but soon im decided to
struggling back, back to overhelming fear. First of all things were worse :/ anything heavy buried my chest and im seeing thousands of shivering hands
in my face.
Dont remember how or when but after many times im able to control that fear and then it seem interesting. Ok, im feared always, but wanting to see
more. Remember was like energy whirl and locate different places at bedroom, or still in my body but floating.
Today if that happens im immediately enter controlled dreaming, but nothing interesting happen - going out to the window and then get lost there
Thats need directed training, maybe im poor learner.
5. How long did it last?
That difficult to say. When its THAT night now, then it happens several times at one night, and then i try provoke it again and again till morning.
6. Were you able to do anything to stop it?
First times (young age) cant do nothing, just helplessness. Paralysis starts at legs and seemed inevitable. When im once able to surpass fear, then
just willing to wake up and vice versa, if im fall asleep and feel buzzing at legs, then im able to awake immediately or if i want go to fly, then my
will amblifies it. Sometimes im do not want it all, but its repeated during the night and then happens im not able to realize what im doing - its that
dream or not. Then i see dream like im wakened up that nasty dream and so on and on - multiple fake awakenings.
7. Are you a religious person? (elaborate)
Not at all any orthodox or common, but these things i feel at wilderness..., dont know.
8. Were you contacted by something, if so what did it/they say?
9. Did the experience feel positive / negative.
Some first experience was extremely negative, i feared when night arrives, but thats gradually easening and now i look forward next time. As i say -
its very rare now.
10. Were you left with any after effects? (Feeling sick or different in yourself)
Do not remember exactly, but so, thats very first time when i was about 10 years old, then i feel like i described above and was Christmas time in
rural USSR. My uncle always bring that christmas tree out of forest. First time im was old enough and we took it together and that tannenbaum was in
my room. At night i dreamed seeing that tree is bent over me and threatening me. Next day i required throw it out and so happens. Im never again
tolerate any of things like that in my property - my dream was so serious.
Hmm, but no aliens
edit on 18-8-2011 by Konesto because: lost in translation