reply to post by ICEKOHLD
I came across your thread and feel like your someone i can ask the great questions and fears that are keeping me from becoming who i need to become, i
havent read through the 60 some odd pages but got a good vibe from your posts
a little about me and whats going on..
in the last year and a half i started my spiritual journey after my first UFO experience , before that i was a zoid like everyone else, "pics or it
didnt happen" ect ect and i actually trusted the media.
no more tho, ive learned that changing your beliefs and faith has a huge impact on you, i see how t.v ,radio and advertisements have ruined a lot of
people with out them knowing it, no one knows their true potential. my mother watches the same news 3 times a day, and now she never goes out or does
anything fun for herself and is always living in fear, its a terrible situation, and when i try to explain it to her and other like her, they think im
just a mad conspiracy theorist!
since i started realizing everything around me is bull#, ive changed for the better and maybe for the worst. sometimes i wish i could go back to "not
knowning" haha.. like you,my intuition is amazing, i know exactly what someone is thinking or feeling just by observing them, and as much as i hate
to say it, i am almost always right, every time i make a observation even if i just throw it out there im always right, i never tell people this
because i hate to sound cocky.
when i started reading about astral projection about 3 years ago i thought it was just "all in your head" kinda thing, i got back into it about 2
months ago and it is 100 % clear to me that there really is a astral world or parallel universe or other dimension what ever you want to call it. and
something is keeping me from going to this world..fear, fear is the biggest problem,
i know they say you cant fear if you want to project but i fear stupid things! things like horror movies. the girl from the ring or the grudge, faces
of terror and death, those things really frighten me, and i know if i transcend into the astral world i will manifest them. i know very well they cant
hurt me, but just the sight of them alone frightens me to death! and im 25 years old. what can i do to get over these fears? because now i worry if
and when there is a shift this year, i dont wanna be in a world with those thoughts. they are automatic, i dont want to be thinking of things like
this, Meditation is supposto help but i have a real hard time quieting my mind.
also on the topic of automatic thoughts i keep thinking about diseases and cancer and "damn i have lung cancer" when i really dont but i truly
believe its bringing it to me every time i think or say that.
im not completely destroyed yet tho, i still do love everything , i do not hate, and i embrace the light,
i had a minor taste of my past life, one day when trying to project something was whispering into my ear, but it was not any language or tone from
this earth, i knew right there and then that my past life was not on this planet. i was scared at first but then later thought maybe it was trying to
help me get out
what do you think it is putting these automatic thoughts in my mind?what can i do? i dont have the greatest of diets in the world, i think that could
be a problem ,
sorry if this story seems all over the place , was just writing what came to me in the moment
love and light