Hi there, I am not going to read the previous posts on your thread so I apologize if I am repeating what someone else has said.
I am also 47. I smoked cigs since I was about 15-16 years old. By the time I was in my 30's I was smoking two packs a day and then some. I have
an addictive personality and thought I would never get off of them, but, I am now four years smoke-free and I do not even have a craving or an
inclination to ever pick up another one. I can sit near people who smoke I can even spend a day alone with opened packs laying about (my partner is a
Here is what I did. I went to my doctor and told them that I wanted to try Wellbutrin (an Anti-psychotic found to help in cessation). He handed me a
30 day supply for free ( I assume most doctors keep supplies of this stuff on hand).
I began the 8-days of taking the Medication and continued to smoke (which is the instruction to do so), then on the 8th day I quit. What I discovered
was that the Wellbutrin immediately cut me off from the effects of nicotine on day one, so by the next day of starting even though I was still smoking
I was not getting any benefit from the nicotine and I began having my "fits" right away. By the 8th day of nicotine "fits" the 9th day of not
smoking was no different. I was suppose to stay on the Wellbutrin for at least 20 days or up to 3 months, but I could not.
Since I am a visual thinker and I see in pictures I was unable to think or remember anything. I was facing mid-terms in college and I could not
remember what I had been studying, so by the 12th day I quit the Wellbutrin. I still managed to pass all my classes and kept my GPA intact (thank GOD
for that). I just continued on without either cigs or Wellbutrin from there and then I discovered something very interesting. I could no longer
smell tobacco. I could be standing over the ashtray in the smoke itself and I couldn't detect any smell at all coming from the cig. I still had my
"fits" or what I thought were cravings but later I realized that I was not having fits at all but rather I was experiencing small bursts of anxiety.
I was literally having anxiety attacks all my life and my treatment for it was Nicotine of all things.
Once I finally came to grips with what the Anxiety really was and how it was effecting me I began walking more, exercising more and suddenly focusing
on my breath. I managed to ward off these episodes within minutes of them starting and I then realized that I did not have a desire or a craving for
a cig. Seriously, almost two years went by before I knew it and still I could not smell a cig.
I can say though, now I do smell them and I think they smell marvelous! I love the smell of tobacco in the room, pipe tobacco, cigars, cigarettes,
you name it I love it. I have jars of pipe tobacco here (because of my partner) and I adore the aroma. I still have no desire for it. I only like
the smell, much as I love the smell of food.
I will admit, when I quit I was about 170 pounds and I shot up to about 220 pounds within two years. I was told many times that weight gain is normal
and not to worry about it. I never did, I openly accepted the new "Santa" look although I do wish I were a bit more jolly LOL. Eventually by last
year (my third year off cigs) I started realizing my metabolism was beginning to adjust. Without any efforts at all I finally withered back down to a
reasonable 165 pounds and with good muscle definition. I am just about ready to turn 48 and I feel fabulous.
I did go through a cascade of health problems after I quit and I cannot help but think that I was actually going through the cleansing process and
this was the expression my body was doing. Nothing lasted for long, aches/pains, swelling, you name it, if an old person ever had it I had it! Now I
feel much better and getting better every day.
I do note that it did not make me a better singer in the shower though! LOL I also did other things like using a really good water filter and now I
am not even a person who wears deodorants and I do not "smell" like I used to. I can be near the fussiest noses and no one has ever complained to
me and I have asked, believe me, I used to be a serious deodorant user. I can sweat like a pig and still smell like a flower
So, think about it on the psychological level, try to cut the Nicotine firing endorphins and see if it doesn't help you overcome this, it certainly
worked for me!
You will probably notice a drastic aging, but that might just be you catching up to yourself and detoxifying. Eventually you will see a much better
you in the future!