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The memory of being free of it clouds up the here and now sometimes.
Originally posted by 1Starman
reply to post by backinblack[/url]
Dear backinblack,May I give you a suggestion. Close your eyes(or open) and try to lose all senses of the physical and material feeling and concentrate on looking and going inwards towards a spot in the back of your head behind your earlobes.That is where your real self,your subconsious is. Keep on trying every chance you get and you will eventually understand. It may take some time but you will know when you are doing it.
Originally posted by backinblack
Does anyone feel as I do?
I often have to really concentrate to believe I am really here, in the now..
Even as I type these words I'm uncertain where my real self is.
Who else drives down a road and has to question if they are really there?
My question is, where am I if not in this world..
I have always been considered different by those around me..
Smarter than the rest..Fearless to the point of being taken to a psychologists at an early age because my mother considered me suicidal..The psychologists concluded the fearless part, not me..And he did mention he wished he was the same..
So what am I? I find it hard to believe I am here..
I worry little about pain or death..Only other peoples problems bother me, not mine..
I could say many more things about myself and will do for like minded members in u2u's..