posted on Nov, 5 2009 @ 11:13 AM
I am sorry for frailing out of control its just some things shouldnt of happened. I have like 300 cds in the 90's up to 05 and a few after. You
should see some of the "speculation" I found. In this country with rights and womens right and sexual harrassment and all the ways people can work
around the laws. I was pissed off had a lot of baggage illigally detained twice my luck is like some ongoing joke. I had a massive head injury ,
insomnia hazy amnesia tired and lack of info I was not a complete person or able to function at a normal level. My neighbors are really having fun
with this 2 1/2 years they call me stupid retarted baby and the gay I really dont like all of them I already got out of high school to get away from
you people I dont care this is my house where I live , move yeah right are you high , dont shoot illegal surveilance lasers on my property. There are
4 neighbors who live close to me who have my house surrounded and certain people who come into breakfast club as guest stars or reoccuring
characthers. I was just playing video games in my room I lost my mind cause of mushroom poisoning alone and vomiting and felt self destrucutive like
10 different ways got an email and this was years ago. My neighbors pushed me off the edge of sanity , I dont want to talk about strong politics I
dont want to even be involved in strong politics, I just wanted to draw pictures go to art school and play video games. They have been inducing a
possible psychosis (haunted house) of yelling in the backround and pretending its not real and calling me evil, or the devil. When I almost died I
realized how happy and lucky I am just to be alive and live life to the fullest and be thankful I have 2 eyes and 2 arms that work. I try to keep
sound around so they cant possibly/probably scan me, I am sorry for getting caught in the middle of a problem I apologized and I wasnt going to keep
posting just came on to check old threads.
since this will probably be my last post I thought of something to add , I freaked out over nerves for years having to go back over what was real and
everyone around me telling me there is something wrong with my head. Over time I avoided going to certain places became paranoid or mistrustful. At
times in the past several I have felt self destructive or bad and no matter how many times I might think that it doesnt necassarily make me a bad
person, cause sometimes you might think there is no way out or it might be for the better. I was brought up without religion and just living with my
family trying to live a normal life , I know I may have offended people in the past and went through depression coupled with my mental illness. And
just recently in a program with a bunch of people who seriously considered ending everything, and thats why they were there.
Before the summer even ended after it took me 5 years to finish high school, I was listening to music thought I heard something I shouldnt off coming
from the TV. After a week I was in psych , and over the next few years always trying to pull apart english when I watched tv, like what else could
that mean how could it be taken differently, or a series of commercials or messages, whether they use colors or letters or symbols or words or
pictures or ideas. I was told that the pyramid on the $1 bill was masonic the eye on top of a pyramid , pyramids have heiroglypics and they also use
that symbol for opening third eye your minds eye there are some undergroung refences today to the drug culture, I dont know exactly I had some
reading. I may or may not when I look at tv looking too deeply at everything try pulling it apart, could that be "code". With an abundance of things
you could search for that might make some sense in peoples literature stories if you can pull them apart and study them for art symbolism and so many
books over history and language and peoples cultures of the world and pyramids on 2 different continents I think and space and books about everything.
I just wanted to say that being alive is like a gift and can be a great thing at times and it doesnt really put things into perspective till you think
you are going to lose that life.
What I was trying to get at was whether or not the freemasons are doing anything connected somehow to the illuminati, that would mean today the best
of a trade whether it means composing, writing literature, drawings or making something 3 dimensional like a animated movie or CGI. I was just
considering if they were hiding something on a broader scale, but from all these different perspectives. Just they are trained in their fields as
professionals and the top of the ladder and I dont know if I had to be "babysitted" or messed with and picked up how to hide things in speech while
doing my own investigation. Its just a great time to be alive right now with so much life in every direction I was just going to try to cherish mine
as long as I can. You can read things about anything and everything as much as want and can. I dont know my neighbor , I call her mouse just said "I
shouldnt be messing with peoples lives" maybe she should take some of her own advice. I dont know a Renaissance today or maybe connected to the
freemasons, they might have had an idea or a concept to work with.
[edit on 5-11-2009 by P. O. W.]
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