posted on May, 24 2009 @ 10:16 PM
You do seem self-aware and intelligent. It's good, but it can be bad if you over think everything too much.
I believe you've had really bad luck. I've had these type of things happen to me. Just last week I had a bad day. At first, it was funny because I
would try to accomplish something good (like clean the refrigerator) only to have it totally ruined (first, I spilled juice on the floor, then I
dropped the eggs, then I knocked over the garbage can). Then, after feeling cursed all day and making everything I touched worse, I decided to give up
and go outside to relax...I fell down the porch stairs. I cried. I limped around for days.
I know your examples are far more painful ( I have many painful experience in my life too, but I don't want to get into them right now). I know this
is more than just one bad day for you.
Forget the "Secret". Total BS.
The one thing I felt helped me through really hard times was to tell myself that "today is not the same day as yesterday." I would really think
about those words. I know that sounds like positive thinking, but for me it was a logical wake up. A reality I could hold onto. Because at that time,
it felt like everything was going wrong. I hated getting up in the morning because I knew the day was going to be dismal.
But, I'd force myself to see that it did not have to be the same. I could leave my past in yesterday and move on.
But, mostly, I want you to know that you are not the only one who this has happened to.
I think you sound like a good person. Don't judge your future so quickly.