posted on May, 24 2009 @ 11:30 AM
It is not a curse. Sometimes it feels that way.
I have very bad health and a few rare conditions, that mixed together can make life hell.
My family thinks I have a curse. Here is where perspective comes into play.
How do you interprit this things? You had gallbladder stones, but at least your gallbladder did not rupture. That happened to my father.
Our pets die. It is VERY hard no matter what time it happens, but when we take on these pets, we know this will happen some day, but I choose to look
at all the years of love my pet has given me. I mourn as well, but would choose to go through it again for the years of companion ship.
A little history on me, I have been paralized from a flu shot then got the chronic form of this so it always relapses. I have Ehlers Danlos syndrome,
Sjorgrens syndrome, chronic uric acid kidney stones, Atrial septal defect, heart arrythmia, pulmomary hypertension, spinal stenosis, and I am
allergic to all opiod pain medication and all antibiotics. I need surgery but no one will do it , risk is to high as I can not take antibiotics. I can
not take anything for the pain.
There was time where I just cried out to God, WHY. WHY. WHY
This is inhumane.
When I am going thorough these hard times, I now meditate . It helps me to
escape myself, and realize myself as part of the bigger picture. The trials I have gone through in life, help me empathize with other people.
Instead of asking why, I now Thank god that I have another day to spend with those I love. When my Majestic died 4 days after moving into my new
house, he was 12 it broke me heart, but i ended up rescuing a shelter dog that was due to be put to sleep that day. I miss him terrible, but I saved
Start looking for positive things and as hard as that is some times, believe me I know, if you do this on a regular basis you are going to attract
positive things in your life. That is the best advice that I can give. What you think and project, that is what you are going to attract.
There is no ryhme or reason sometimes, but I know it will all be revealed some day. Just do what you can to bring something positive from each
situation. search your soul and ask yourself, what can I learn from this?