reply to post by nerbot
As the technician, I get to choose what to use and how to use it.....those abilities depend on my faculties and capabilities which are my hardware.
I see what you mean brother and from one level you are correct.
Yet why do you chose certain things?
For example earlier I ranted about are you a BMW person or are you a Ford truck man?
How do you imagine a BMW person? How do you imagine a Ford truck person?
How do you imagine or see yourself?
You see yourself as a technician.
You are a technician who takes care of the system created for you by your mother.
You mention your mother. If you see yourself as being successful so far in life then how does this pivot your relationship with mother?
If you begin to see yourself as a loser then how does that affect your relationship with your mother?
If you see your self as a winner how does this affect your relationship with your mother?
The answer clues you in to how you operate on a social/political level.
Deeper yet...if you see your mother as the creator of your system with yourself as the one who maintains the "mother given " system then it seems
you must........maybe look at your relationship you have with your mother, the relationship your mother has with others, the other party involved in
your initial creation, how does your mother view herself etc.
Of course do not become obsessed with this as it then leads to a different aspect/compulsion. Lol
From my tradition, shamanic tradition the first thing that comes to mind is…
“Mother do you think they will drop the bomb?” Read below lol
Mother, do you think they’ll drop the bomb?
Mother, do you think they’ll like this song?
Mother, do you think they’ll try to break my balls?
Ooooowaa mother, should I build a wall?
Mother, should I run for president?
Mother, should I trust the government?
Mother, will they put me in the firing line?
Ooooowaa is it just a waste of time?
Hush, my baby. Baby, don’t you cry.
Mommas gonna make all of your nightmares come true.
Mommas gonna put all of her fears into you.
Mommas gonna keep you right here under her wing.
She wont let you fly, but she might let you sing.
Mommas gonna keep baby cozy and warm.
Ooo babe, of course mommas gonna help build a wall.
The wall? Pink Floyd.
As most people understand unless they are orphaned we often imprint construct/fear/faith/hope/questions from…..whoever mother is.
You admit, it seems a strong imprint from your mother.
Without getting too personal she may be your own personal reflecting pool.
It is very safe to look at whom you imprinted with in order to see yourself at arms length.
All in all, your imprint formed your basic humour/oral bio survival (to borrow a medieval European term) lol
Look at how your mother negotiated with others. This will give you a clue on how you view social status as well as how you see yourself fitting
From a wider view how does your mother see herself in the world construct given to her by her foremothers/forefathers?
Christian, Hindu, or does she try to reject the faith of her forefathers/foremother?
If she rejects the faith did she rebuild it and call it something else?
For example look at what the the Baptists did to the Quakers. They hunted down and killed them before coming to America…the same thing the
Catholics did to the first Baptists. (Called anna Baptists at the time)
So the point with the last sentance is we often tear down a imprint only to rebuild it later and we call it a different name thinking that we have
made something new.
[edit on 31-12-2008 by whiteraven]