okay here is for the very first time in writing a run down of my experience related to this (i am the forementioned brother from LeoVirgos OP) it has
been on my mind to do this for quite awhile and i suppose it's time to finally get down to it, after all, if u buy the ticket you gotta take the
it's hard for me to do this because i am still very much torn between my beliefs spiritually. i have faith, but by no means is it an unshakeable
faith, and i cannot rightly tell you just what it is i have faith IN. that being said, bear in mind that i do believe in a higher power, or vibration
that binds all souls to one another, just what my heart tells me is all i can tell you, because unlike my dilligant sister, i admitingly do not know a
lot about any scriptures, or religious texts, that facet of this story is over my head, and it just goes to show you that no matter how you may
mentally buck against something, it can still come like the wind against all your best wishes.
First off: Sanity is a horrible thing to pray for.
days before my mother was sent to the hospital, my visions had already started, i was seeing things and sensing other dimenensional beings 3 days
before my mother began her decline, so anyone saying that she was just seeing things because she was dying and her brain had to comfort her, i can not
It started at dusk 2 nights and 3 days before she began to go comatose, her health was bad, but not unusual for her, she had been on a steady decline.
All through my house i started getting that "im not alone feeling" to the upteenth degree. shadow like figures were constantly going back and
forth across my vision, racing around my living room. I was scared but not completely put off, my life has been filled with MANY extaordinary things,
so i was at first only entertained and curious. I began to wonder if it was a bad omen, but i was not paranoid of a death coming necessarily. i had
not been doing drugs. the shadow folk persisted, and needless to say, sleep was impossible that first night. Well the next day, to myamazement, the
frequency of them INCREASED, although they were not as visual, more like a shimmer across reality, and the malicious feelings started. i began to
wonder what was what going on, i had never experienced a PERSISTING reality anomaly, only bursts of amazing things in the past, this was a constant
attack on my mind and spirit. As the sun went down it only got worse. now not only was their number three times greater, i began to see faces behind
me in the mirror for brief moments, leaving me wondering if it was there at all, and a new figure had joined the circus, a lady dressed in white, who
despite her beauty (this beauty was something i sensed, a certain pride coming off of he, she was not clear enough defined in reality, but when i
looked at her, the image i saw with my eyes was enhanced by images she seemed to send to my mind) sespite the beauty i wanted nothing to do with her,
i tried to not let on that i saw her, feeling that to do so would bring bad things. i did the same thing with the shadow things, but she was not
fooled as easy, she knew that i knew she was there. Fast forward to the next day, my mothers blood pressure drops, and she is sent to the hospital.
I was not necessarily very worried at this point, it sounds bad but my intention is to be truthful, and she went to the hospital something like once a
month at least, and i just took for granted that she would be back. Well she almost did not.
That night it became apparent that i was in this for the long haul, buy the ticket take the ride. Now i couldn't even discern what was reality and
what wasn't. i still had not slept, and began to get the feeling that sleep was a luxury i would not have for many more days to come. It's hard to
go to sleep when u have shadow things crawling around the room, and a lady appearing in the corner of your vision no matter where u looked, and when i
closed my eyes she was there too, and even harder to not see. Now i could see something only described as static, covering everything i saw. It was
yellow at times, blue at others. Bright blue ribbons were streaming out of my fingertips, and they would shoot all the way across the room until they
encountered something else and disapated. The shadows were becoming more solid, and the lady had an urgent, desperate feel to her. i had no sleep
that night either, and the next day i told my father that i was losing my mind, and that maybe i should get help, i broke my silence and told him,
this is not easy to do if u know my father. He asked the obvious question: are u doing drugs?" i was dismayed and vowed to keep silent again. Only
i was really losing it. People began to notice how i would take quick glances in other directions as if i was seeing something there, and i would not
leave the house. The static was covering everything, espescially people. it clung to them and obscured faces. this continued for 3 more days (i had
only slept a combined 4 hours in 7 days) then i heard that my mother was dying, and was seeing the same thing! Maybe i wasn't crazy i thought.
this was a relief because i had been praying, yes praying, that i would not go crazy. praying for normalcy. well now i decided to do something woth
this amazing experience. I thought if i were to go see my mother in person, the shadow beings and the lady (especially her) would follow me and it
would be the death of my mother...and i still believe this to be true. The lady was death and i was not going to bring death to my mother. I had to
get a message to her however, and i began to concentrate on an image of my brother who died before i was born, without his death i would not have been
born. here's a link to that story: www.abovetopsecret.com...
i have always had trouble with the idea of him. i didn't know him, and to be honest he just never seemed REAL in my life. Well i figured that had
to change, i focused on an image of him ni my mind as i tried t olaunch an OOBE, he was my guide to my mother. we went and saw her, and i relayed the
message i had in my heart that she needed to hear...i told her to remember that although she was seeing beautiful place of paradise there was also
Sunshine in this world. She calls my son Sunshine, and i thought this would shock her into coming back so to speak, and it worked. i feel a little
guilty for this now, interfearing, but it's done.