posted on Feb, 26 2008 @ 12:10 AM
While I share the enthusiasm of being alive during these times, and assuming something drastic happens at the end of 2012, I will feel incredibly
lucky, honored, special, whatever you want to call it, even if it's utterly miserable or it's my death. I'd know thats the end, and I was
incarnated into this body, at this time and place, to experience it. The ultimate ticket to a show for a human soul, I mean its the ultimate
spectacle, terrifying as it may seem. This should make anyone alive during these times feel special and chosen.
But, at the same time, it's also dangerous to assume something drastic will happen, a 75% world population reduction, massive global upheaval and
disasters, one can become instilled with a sense of lost hope, false hope, or no hope. One can begin to stagnate, and think, why bother pushing myself
to the limit to achieve what I need to achieve for myself to improve my standard of living and/or life, or that of my loved ones. Or, if i had some
really bad habit, or an addiction, and convinced myself this will happen without a doubt, I could see how I might sucker myself into apathy and
stagnation, waiting to die essentially.
But I DO think something big is going to happen. I dont know if millions will die, I have no freaking clue whats going to happen, but something
will. Something significant, but I dont think its going to be all out destruction.
Alternatively, I buy the global conscious shift more so than global destruction, and here is why. Over the years, and it may be because I'm just
growing older and wiser and experiencing and learning, but I really feel like something changed ever since roughly around 9/11. It was like the wool
was pulled from the eyes, before there was no impending doom, now its all people think and talk about. But since then, the feelings i've felt, the
changes i've noticed, have been utterly spiritual in nature, and positive at that. I truly feel as if something powerful yet subtle is at work,
nudging me in the proper direction to improve and prepare myself, to purify myself, to better myself, almost as if .. I need to be "accepted" or
"chosen" come time, it's weird. It's also a bit of preparation for potential of calamities, in which case I'd be a stronger person more capable
But overall its been a very positive, mind opening experience. As the years go by, I learn so much, discover so much, change so much. Just 5 years
ago, I was a humanist deist verging on atheist. I had no faith, didnt get into religion, spirituality, the history of either, the details of either.
That all changed. So maybe this will be a peaceful thing, I can hope at least.