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originally posted by: deadlyhope
You know, I really don't like me..and the more I learn about me, the more I realize I want to change, the more I wonder how I could change.. The more frustrated I get at myself for not having an answer.
How do you go about increasing your intelligence, along with your integrity? How do you go about heightening your senses and experiencing old things in a new way, how do you go about connecting with others when you have no idea how to connect, and always feel inferior to those around you?
How can I go against the norms of culture and be my own person, when I have no blue print or anything to follow?
I'm really irritable lately and I think it's because I'm stuck in a rut. I don't know what I want to do for a hobby, much less a career (not that the two have the be related, I just don't know either one.) My daughter is growing up, five months now and I feel like less of a father and a man than ever. I just can't figure things out. I attempt to, and I'm actually okay at doing the research for an idea - like I wanted to invest in a rental home because I live in a high tourism area, only to find out that the law states that you can only rent out a part of a house, and have to occupy the house to rent it out - which is not something I want to do.
Just one example, though. I'll get interested in many, many topics only to find out that there's deal breakers - is there some secret to getting over this? To just deal with the circumstances given you, or change them? I feel powerless against the law and ordinances of the city I wanted to do business in , for instance.
Anyways... Just looking for a place to write my thoughts. Sometimes I feel like I use ats as a journal more than a place of discussion and I hope I don't put others off in doing so.
originally posted by: deadlyhope
a reply to: AboveBoard
Great suggestion - I do live in a beautiful area - Millions of tourists come around here a year for the beauty that can be found. I should try to find the same. The beauty in my own backyard.
originally posted by: deadlyhope
a reply to: DBCowboy
There's some assurance in that, to know that I'm up against the same challenges as many others - I suppose I could look to that for inspiration as well. Realize that people in my exact situation or very similar have become successful in the way that they define success
As for PPND (Paternal Postnatal Depression), some research suggests that it develops more gradually in men over the course of the child’s first year than postpartum depression develops in women.
Increased anger and conflict with others
Increased use of alcohol or other drugs
Frustration or irritability
Violent behavior
Losing weight without trying
Isolation from family and friends
Being easily stressed
Impulsiveness and taking risks, like reckless driving and extramarital sex
Feeling discouraged
Increases in complaints about physical problems
Ongoing physical symptoms, like headaches, digestion problems or pain
Problems with concentration and motivation
Loss of interest in work, hobbies and sex
Working constantly
Frustration or irritability
Misuse of prescription medication
Increased concerns about productivity and functioning at school or work
Fatigue
Experiencing conflict between how you think you should be as a man and how you actually are
Thoughts of suicide