posted on Feb, 18 2017 @ 11:09 AM
You know, I really don't like me..and the more I learn about me, the more I realize I want to change, the more I wonder how I could change.. The more
frustrated I get at myself for not having an answer.
How do you go about increasing your intelligence, along with your integrity? How do you go about heightening your senses and experiencing old things
in a new way, how do you go about connecting with others when you have no idea how to connect, and always feel inferior to those around you?
How can I go against the norms of culture and be my own person, when I have no blue print or anything to follow?
I'm really irritable lately and I think it's because I'm stuck in a rut. I don't know what I want to do for a hobby, much less a career (not that
the two have the be related, I just don't know either one.) My daughter is growing up, five months now and I feel like less of a father and a man
than ever. I just can't figure things out. I attempt to, and I'm actually okay at doing the research for an idea - like I wanted to invest in a
rental home because I live in a high tourism area, only to find out that the law states that you can only rent out a part of a house, and have to
occupy the house to rent it out - which is not something I want to do.
Just one example, though. I'll get interested in many, many topics only to find out that there's deal breakers - is there some secret to getting
over this? To just deal with the circumstances given you, or change them? I feel powerless against the law and ordinances of the city I wanted to do
business in , for instance.
Anyways... Just looking for a place to write my thoughts. Sometimes I feel like I use ats as a journal more than a place of discussion and I hope I
don't put others off in doing so.