a reply to: Kashai
My feeling is - survival is normal and natural. A bigger question emerges (for me): isn't this world beautiful? And when we are raised normally and
spared the "developmental entropy" of early trauma and the psychodynamical complexities it creates - isn't this world, as it seems, the essence of
what we mean by "heaven"? Pure blissfulness?
This is so important, especially when we remember that the "now" is largely misrepresentative of "what is really real". For instance, consciousness at
every moment is an ecological phenomenon. Every person is a unique culture in space-time of relationships at different points of time that have given
each person a 'unique point of view'. Right?
But this is also a problem - not an insurmountable one - but a problem nonetheless because it messes with our brains 'predictive system' i.e. that we
naturally superimpose our expectations (or "predictions") upon other peoples signals-cues in conformity with our past experiences. This means we are
all very much existing in a state of uncertainty - indeterminism - with regard to whats true and real.
As said - this can, and it is my hope, WILL, become overcome - but it takes education and an understanding that every human being has a unique
potential to complexify their mind-brains - and so are fully able, if they develop essential affect-regulation skills (through meta-cognition, or
mindfulness) - to understand reality with the subtlety that is required to know it deeply and truly.
So, is survival evil if living means some level of immorality? I don't think any Human who engages in evil is sane - or understanding reality in a way
that corresponds to the actual unvarnished truth of things (i.e. ecological interconnectedness). Said another way, in Trumps America, if someone with
fascistic beliefs was trying to kill me, and I defended myself by killing him - is that wrong? No. It's harsh - its an act of evil - but its a
'necessary evil' inasmuch as my survival means keeping alive a way of being that promotes truth.
Even more importantly: my knowledge of trauma and its effects on consciousness and the matter of our bodies affords me an understanding of what would
be needed - of myself - if I were to ever kill someone, inasmuch as killing is a fundamentally traumatizing action - and so requires a great deal of
mindfulness, and awareness to recognize the wound - a wound, in all likelihood, that will never go away i.e. as a sense impression and the negative
affects it provokes.
In short - evil - or entropy - lets loose all sorts of "demons" within your mind. Thus, if you're going to forced into engaging in it i.e. as a matter
of physical survival - than you're going to need to realize what sort of 'holes' it will create within you i.e. you will need to be bring a
compassionate awareness to what is occurring, why you did it, so that the evil doesn't metastasize into other areas of your being.