posted on Oct, 18 2016 @ 10:55 AM
Hi everyone this is Puppy Love and finally I have an update!!!!
Just got the call, and all my background checks and such has gone through. Next week I start my classes to become a home aid I got the job. I'm
excited. Finally my life is beginning to really look up again! Also for the first time my father has been excited about and encouraging towards a
job I'm going into. He seems to think it's one I will be very happy with. Is nice not having him be so negative for once in my life, especially
after how bad he treated me during the family get together in July.
I've also been taking the 5-HTP everyone has recommended. It seems like it's helping some. There's been lots of stress lately as my roommate lost
his job. But it was at a horrible company who were massively underpaying him anyway. All the jobs he's currently been called to interview for offer
between 5 and 7 dollars more an hour. Is interviewing for one as we speak so that's good in the long run. He's a vet so was able to get rent taken
care of for the rest of the year. Either way money is tight til we get money coming back in, but the future is looking bright once we get through
this hurdle. So I'm positive. I think the 5-HTP is helping a bit with that. Otherwise I'd be a hopeless mess right now.
I'm still struggling with depression, I can feel it trying to eat away at me, but it feels manageable. My new job comes with insurance so once that
kicks in, I won't make the same mistake I always do and assume because things are going alright it means I am alright. I will seek help as soon as I
can once I'm able. Anything to prevent another crash and burn. I may get disheartened often, there's a lot in this world to bring us all down, but
I want to live too. I have an insatiable curiosity and while I hate seeing the worst the world has to offer, I also love seeing the positive
progressions and advances. So now that I'm not at my lowest I can say I have no interest in going anywhere. So none of those suicidal intrusive
thoughts for first time in a long time. Relieved about that.
I really want to thank you all for being here in my time of need. For your well wishes, for your encouragement, and much needed advice and your
helping hands. This update has been a long time coming, but getting a job has taken a bit of time. I'm fortunate, and appreciative that with my
shaky job background to be given this chance. One I would not have known to even try for or be in pursuit of if not for all of you.
With much love for all who have supported me in my time of need,