posted on Jul, 30 2016 @ 10:43 PM
Multiple times on ATS I have seen threads or comments on the topic of people that suck the life or energy out of you. That these people are to be
avoided or abandoned. This thought to me seems incredibly selfish and uncaring. A few days ago I was stuck between abandoning a girl I had met
recently through Tinder because the entire situation was uncertain and some conversations went downhill. Her life is not good by any standard. Me
staying? I doubt it will help much unless I can manage to give her "deep love"; something that is true and not superficial. She wants things slow and
isn't sure she can commit. Leaving would/will save a lot of heartache for me, but may harm her as well. She has self destructive tendencies, though I
have not witnessed these personally and she says when I am with her I stabilize her in a good way. Well, I decided to stay. We went out to Central
Park yesterday, had dinner together and then went to a second park as there was little time left and then took her home.
I'm not sure the purpose of sharing any of this. It makes no sense and seems incredibly fragmented. I care about this girl, though I'm keeping myself
from investing emotions too much, though this is difficult at times as I worry or miss her. But I can not imagine abandoning her. The thought seems
great, but so selfish and uncaring I could never go through with it.