Right I am not saying i am about to hang up my tin foil hat or anything but recently i have been doing a lot of thinking about my life in general and
how i am spending my time. Basically the deep question of "what the hell am i doing with my life?!?!?!) that I am sure we have all asked ourselves at
one point or another.
This trail of thought was interrupted when i clicked the refresh button on my browser to see if the "MyATS" page had up dated, if anyone had replied
to any of my threads. I was just about to click to find out who was going to violently disagree with me or praise one of my points when i thought
"why do i care and what am i actually getting out of this site?"
I have been hear over 4 years now, I average at least 4 posts a day, I would hate to tally up all the hours I have spent on this site, researching
posts or waiting for a response in a intellectual debate and now after all these years and writing what will now be my 278th thread and 6538th post I
"What the hell am i thinking!
I get nothing out of this, not a thing, I don't even learn, at least I think I don't learn any more. Put it this way it has been months since i have
read a thread and thought "wow i did not know that" and nothing I have ever learnt on ATS has ever been of any use in my day to day life. If i want to
learn about something i pick up a book and learn about it, I don't turn to ATS, I only ever use ATS as a means to present my findings to a bunch of
people who I don't know and don't care about and who are probably going to tell me my hours of research and writing time where pointless because i
neglected to mention the Aliens, Illuminati, false flag or that it was all Obama's fault.
So I dont learn anything and now feel that using ATS as a platform to present my findings on is kind of pointless.
Ahhh but ATS is a community i here you cry.
No its not.
I don't even get any stimulating debate these days because its usually just me and a few others arguing with a guy who is quite obviously a paranoid
racist who thinks ISIS are going to steal his guns then teach his sons its "ok to be gay" or some other crap that is all the fault of that Kenyan
called Obama and that I am wrong to think that anything matters outside of 'merica.
This leads me now to a really uncomfortable question.
What am i actually getting out of this?
I will tell you the answer, nothing and that's almost terrifying, I have invested so much of my valuable time on this site and gotten nothing out of
it. Just think about how fit i could have became if instead of 4 posts a day i was hitting the gym in the time it took me to write them up, or how
freakishly braining i would be if i spent time reading rather than writing gibberish like i am right now.
I think i just blew my own mind.
So with that i will waist yet more of my time now browsing the comments section because for some reason i actually want to know if any of you feel the
same about this or am i just needing to step away from the keyboard for a few weeks.
edit on 5-10-2015 by OtherSideOfTheCoin because: (no