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AlchemistSwami
I feel sorrow for your friend and her family, and would like to say I'm sorry that you have to deal with this as well. Sometimes a sudden death can be easier to deal with than one that is expected in advance. I would rather know in advance if a loved one was going to have a limited time left here on earth. That could be a blessing to know that the next 5 visits you have will be your last. I know that is no comfort, but this will give you time to make sure those are the best they can be.
Maybe you could ask her if there is anything she always wanted to do, that you could help make happen. Or perhaps there is something she would like you to do with your life, in honor of hers. It could be something as learning an instrument or speaking a new language, etc. but offering to honor her life in any way you are able may comfort her in knowing she'll always be close to you in your heart. Take care and again from one stranger to another, I am sorry for your difficult and emotional struggle with the sad news of your friends situation.
You start grieving before the person is gone. It is so wrong.
Night Star
reply to post by k21968
You start grieving before the person is gone. It is so wrong.
K2, what am I going to do with you? It is NOT wrong Honey. It is normal to feel as you do. You have done nothing wrong and as far as I can see, you have done everything right and still are.
k21968
reply to post by JustMike
I could not have said it better Mike! This thread was hard for me to write and I wrote it in pure desperation. I was angry, sad, and beyond confused. Through Kat, Night Star, Spartacus, Cody, and Rod I have learned a lot about the human spirit. I have found life long friends here on this thread and I am deeply thankful for everyone that has taken the time to read it and respond and offer whatever hope and insight they may have. I dont always agree but I have learned that I dont have to agree. Every single post was sent from the heart and that means more than anything to me.
Before this, ATS was a place I came to read what was really going on in the world and get a different perspective. Since this, ATS is a place I feel at home with great people that I can honestly say I love.
This thread has made me look at other threads differently. I see replies differently. Especially the ones I do not agree with. I know the person on the other end sent it from the heart.
ATS is full of great people.
I dread the day this thread ends for I know what that will mean. I know it is inevitable but as long as the thread lives so does Lisa.
Corny I know.
Thank you for stopping by and your reply made me tear up. Not in a sad way. You just expressed so beautifully what I feel.
Thank you!
K2