6 months to live...and not a clue what to say

reply to post by Night Star


Fish tanks are awesome, I often find myself with a really good film on the TV and watching the fish

One day when Mrs C and I move to a bigger place I'll try and convince her to let me get one of these bad boys, but with more interesting fish.


Cody

reply to post by StealthyKat

Actually I hadn't even noticed that "GOO" instead of "GOOD" typo! The mind sees what it expects, sometimes.

And Kat, speaking of good, here's hoping all is good with your scan today. We're thinking of you and staying positive!

PS: check your messages, Kat!

JustMike
reply to post by StealthyKat

 

Actually I hadn't even noticed that "GOO" instead of "GOOD" typo!

The mind sees what it expects, sometimes.

And Kat, speaking of good, here's hoping all is good with your scan today. We're thinking of you and staying positive!

PS: check your messages, kat!

edit on 9/10/13 by JustMike because: (no reason given)

Like Mike said

Cody

Good luck Kat!!!!!!!!

reply to post by cody599


I have never seen a coffee table aquarium. That is awesome!!

Thinking of you Kat. Please update us! Love ya!!

reply to post by k21968


How you holding up k2 ?

I'm only ever a u2u away hun

((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))

Cody

cody599
reply to post by k21968

 

How you holding up k2 ?

I'm only ever a u2u away hun

((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))

Cody

I am ok. Lisa called me today. Her blood work came back and her tumor marker cells have doubled from what they oriignally were when she was diagnosed which means her treatments are failing. They had gone down last month which gave us hope...and this month...they were twice what they ever were at the highest.

She said she is not giving up. She has a very positive attitude. She meets with her oncologist next week to decide what to do / whether to stop ALL treatments even the ones that are prolonging her life because they are apparently no longer working.

I know the end is inevitable. I just want the end to be as far as way as possible.

I wasnt a good one to make her laugh tonight. I spent the entire conversation choking back tears.

I need to be stronger for her.

Thanks for checking on me. I think I am depressed. Honestly.

k21968

cody599
reply to post by k21968

 

How you holding up k2 ?

I'm only ever a u2u away hun

((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))

Cody

I am ok. Lisa called me today. Her blood work came back and her tumor marker cells have doubled from what they oriignally were when she was diagnosed which means her treatments are failing. They had gone down last month which gave us hope...and this month...they were twice what they ever were at the highest.

She said she is not giving up. She has a very positive attitude. She meets with her oncologist next week to decide what to do / whether to stop ALL treatments even the ones that are prolonging her life because they are apparently no longer working.

I know the end is inevitable. I just want the end to be as far as way as possible.

I wasnt a good one to make her laugh tonight. I spent the entire conversation choking back tears.

I need to be stronger for her.

Thanks for checking on me. I think I am depressed. Honestly.

edit on 9-10-2013 by k21968 because: (no reason given)

Awwwww K......I am really sorry to hear that. But remember one thing....cancer is like that. It is ups and downs. One minute things seem to be improving, then you have a setback, and visa versa, We know she probably won't be CURED, but if she has a positive outlook, that is a good thing. I agree she should talk with her oncologist, and maybe try another treatment....OR....focus on QUALITY of life instead of quantity. I think if I knew for sure I wouldn't be cured, I would just want to ENJOY the rest of my time. Instead of laying in bed sick from treatments and hooked up to machines, you know? But that is her decision to make.

K.....I want you to know this.....you don't have to always be "up". You beat yourself down trying to be perfect. You are being her friend, and that's ALL she needs from you. You don't always have to make her laugh. To be honest, there are times when I wish people would just stop trying to always "cheer me up" .....I just want them to act like they normally would. You have done a great job being there for her. There is nothing you can do to CHANGE the situation....just continue to be her friend, and don't think of what you should or shouldn't be doing ......just be your natural self. You do not need to prove anything to Lisa...she KNOWS how you feel and she knows your heart....Please trust me on this. Take a deep breath, relax, and know that you are doing exactly the right thing....and noneed to be perfect hon.....just be your sweet self.

k21968
Thinking of you Kat. Please update us! Love ya!!

I'm doing fine....just a little tired. Got my scan today So soon I will know what the next step is, and that is a relief! That's the worst part, the not knowing. No matter what it shows though, I'll just do whatever I have to because...

I have some playoff games to go to because my Saints (football team) are kicking BUTT!!! I have season tickets and I am going to those games if I have to CRAWL there haha!!!!

k21968

cody599
reply to post by k21968

 

How you holding up k2 ?

I'm only ever a u2u away hun

((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))

Cody

I am ok. Lisa called me today. Her blood work came back and her tumor marker cells have doubled from what they oriignally were when she was diagnosed which means her treatments are failing. They had gone down last month which gave us hope...and this month...they were twice what they ever were at the highest.

She said she is not giving up. She has a very positive attitude. She meets with her oncologist next week to decide what to do / whether to stop ALL treatments even the ones that are prolonging her life because they are apparently no longer working.

I know the end is inevitable. I just want the end to be as far as way as possible.

I wasnt a good one to make her laugh tonight. I spent the entire conversation choking back tears.

I need to be stronger for her.

Thanks for checking on me. I think I am depressed. Honestly.

edit on 9-10-2013 by k21968 because: (no reason given)

I think Kat pretty much summed it up

It's a funny old thing this, I woke up about an hour ago to a kitchen with a damp floor, found the leak and thought I don't need this right now . I'll do a quick fix and sort it later.
Suffice to say my fix wasn't as successful as my still asleep brain thought it would be. I now look like this


I was pretty I can assure you, so I turned off the water and said screw it, I'll deal with it later.

Logged on read your post, and suddenly the leak isn't that big a deal, it can wait.

I'm sorry your news wasn't good K2, genuinely sorry, and of course you're depressed, who wouldn't be ?
There will be a stage when you just start thinking oh get it over with already and let me carry on with my life. It's OK to think that, it's not selfish, it's a wish for release from your pain, not a death wish, just a plea for normality. Then the whole guilt trip for thinking it.

It's natural

All we can do is be here for you and type words, but know this.

We genuinely care

Do yourself a favour hun, let yourself not be strong for a while, break down, have a bloody good cry, allow yourself to be mad at the world, scream at God for putting you and your loved ones through this.

Then put on your favourite song and have a ME moment, be selfish for a change, no body will think less of you for it I promise you.

Thinking of you and leaking pipes (((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))
A rather soggy

Cody

reply to post by StealthyKat


Kat I have to run out the door to work

Sending you my best for your scan, and thinking you as well,

OK so k2, Kat, Night Star, leaky pipes. Thinking cap on.

It's gonna be an interesting day

Loadsa

Cody

That's very sad. So sorry you could lose your friend

I don't know what you can say


The best gift you could give is your time. She needs you for support, love and friendship. If you have time to visit or call her often enough I'm sure this will help her to cope. She must have so many emotions going on. I really don't know what else to say. It's very difficult

Hello Violet! Nice of you to join us in here.

Kat, good luck Darlin'! I see my oncologist the 18th. Have to have some bloodwork in a day or two before going. Makes me nervous that something will show up.

I was going to get a stronger pain med for my nerve damage and found out that without medical it would cost 370.00 a month!!!!!! I cried. So now I'm back on the old stuff which is better than nothing.

K2, you are not alone in being depressed. My husband has so many health problems it's unreal and he will surely die young. I'm in pain all the time and limited in what I can do. I worry about us, my elderly Mother, finances, other people I care about...sigh...Yesterday I just let it all out and cried my heart out. So I guess we can be depressed together. HUGS!

Night Star
Hello Violet! Nice of you to join us in here.

Kat, good luck Darlin'! I see my oncologist the 18th. Have to have some bloodwork in a day or two before going. Makes me nervous that something will show up.

I was going to get a stronger pain med for my nerve damage and found out that without medical it would cost 370.00 a month!!!!!! I cried. So now I'm back on the old stuff which is better than nothing.

K2, you are not alone in being depressed. My husband has so many health problems it's unreal and he will surely die young. I'm in pain all the time and limited in what I can do. I worry about us, my elderly Mother, finances, other people I care about...sigh...Yesterday I just let it all out and cried my heart out. So I guess we can be depressed together. HUGS!

Sorry Night Star. My hubby is disabled will die long before me as well. I worry about my parents (they are 75) and my 18 yr old daughter..and my friend. Sometimes it just gets to be too much.

There is no one I would rather be depressed with than you , Kat, Rod, and Cody.

Sorry your meds are so expensive. That stinks. Contact the manufacturer? Ask for samples?? Just some suggestions.

I hope your blood work and scans come back good.

Where is KAT?? I havent heard from her...I hope she is ok...

reply to post by k21968

Always a pleasure to be depressed with

Kat's pacing the floor waiting for results

She promised to post here, so watch this space.

In the mean time .....................

This is my late father in law with his granddaughter


I giggle every time I see this

So who is helping whom ?

Funny old world huh ?

What a great memory

Cody

Yoooo Hooooo! *waving*

I'm here....just been very buy today. Well they haven't called
Now I have to wait all weekend. I know they have it by now....last time they called me the next day to tell me it was fine....which worries me. Why the delay?
Well I can't start thinking bad thoughts so I will just be patient (LOL who am I kidding, I'll be pacing like a cat on a hot tin roof)

Grrrrrrrrrrr I hate waiting!

cody599
reply to post by k21968

 

Always a pleasure to be depressed with

Kat's pacing the floor waiting for results

She promised to post here, so watch this space.

In the mean time .....................

This is my late father in law with his granddaughter

I giggle every time I see this

So who is helping whom ?

Funny old world huh ?

What a great memory

Cody

I LOVE that pic!! So Cody, you going all hard core on us with the skulls ? LOL

Awww, Cody that pic is wonderful!

Watch some intense movies kat or read a great book as a diversion. I know what that waiting game is like.

K2, that might help you as well. I just watched Stephen King's the stand. That kept me occupied for some time. I read every night before I go to sleep. Always good to lose myself in different places and times through the pages of a good book. I love fantasy with mystical beings and creatures and sci/fi the best.