After being disccharged from the military I came home only to face a life mental chaos and complete depression. When I was in the military I had the
most strange experiences that a new soldier could encounter, everything from witnessing paranormal phenomenom to ufo phenomenom. My experiences led me
to a complete state of drunkness, I was always drinking and always getting in trouble for it.
I realized that a deeper force was operating beside me and it was an evil one. Since I believe evil has no power over me I started teaching myself
about everything from religion to esoterics for the past 2 years after my discharge.
When I came home I felt like i had hypersentsitivity to sound, but I also felt like all the sounds were coming form my neighbors who live underneath
me. I got so mad one day from hearing sounds which I thought were coming from my neighbors computer in a manner in which I thought that my neighbor
was downloading random anonying sounds which inclided everything from loud buzzing bees to police sirens then playing them aloud on his pc with very
high bass speakers. I almost tried to kick down their door and beat all their azzes up one day that I was even awakened from good sleep by these
sounds..
By coincidence right when this was going up one of my sisters psychiatrist friend was in my house and she decided to call the cops, which led to me
doing 30 days in a palce called 4 winds upstate. This place wasn't so bad, in fact it opened my mind up spiritually, because I had an amazing view of
the stars because this place was built on a beautiful elevated landscape upstate. While there I decided to find myself and I was taught alot about
self realization and chinese medicine philosophies and yoga.
When I came home after leaving this place I was in a complete state of mental relaxation after drinking alot of seroquel and zoloft for a month and
being in such a peaceful environment. Even though I felt that pot was causing alot of my problems I realized that smoking it was key to enabling my
higher perception of truth. Now I smoke and meditate and do alot of reading on esoterics and religion in general. Spirituality is my way to escape the
stresses wihich arised from past few years of strange revelation type experiences.
Just recently I read about 20 different ebooks on google about esoterics and just about every physic phenomenom which I know about and now i
undererstand how everything can be explained geomtrically. Sacred geometry can only be manifested in your thoughts throught practice. the more you
focus on geometric patterns the more atttraction that your perception draws to the perception of the unseen etheral geometrical infinite patternized
universe.
It's funny because 2 days ago my second floor neighbors moved and I decided to walk into their apartment and see what their living conditions were
like because I felt like they tried to screw my life and this would be satisfying. The super of my building came to paint and he was having a
conversation with my father about how they found alot of ritualistic material in their house and how they had pentragrams drawn all over their walls.
I saw this with my own eyes and then I realized that everything till that point was a revelation about the simplicity behind evil powers which can be
manifested through symbolism and ritualism. This was the cause to all the strange sounds which drove me crazy for a few months.
I had spoken to a psychic who told me I was under a spell which involved the thought of me being hung over a tomb and he told me how to get rid of its
effect. I paid 300 bucks for a gallon of some kind of mystical bathwater which was suppose to exterminate this crap and I didn't believe in the occult
then so I didn't really have the will to follow through with the psychics instruction about the bath. Not only do I not need the ath now, but I also
understand why the world is so f*ck*d up, because occult BS is really taking place and its nothing but a bunch of individuals who understand their
geometrical relationship to the universe, what a great month it has been.
Much love and knowledge.
Thanks for reading.
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