posted on Dec, 19 2005 @ 01:18 AM
Jeez... I'm finding something out now. Am I ever glad that this topic came up, and has given experiences that are very, very similar and down to
earth - rather than just bizarre. It's allowed me to look at the subject of my own experience again.
Unfortunately, I think I've found something out. While originally doing the "abduction test", when the question came up "Do you think you have a
purpose here?" I answered no - but hearing from other people and the changes that happened to them after their experiences, I'm now leaning towards
yes.
Recently I made a thread "ADD the next step of human evolution" on the Biology and Medical board, where I said that perhaps ADD is an evolutionary
advantage, not disadvantage - and I stated my own abilities and mild ADD case to help support my hypothesis. But now, after reading this article, I'm
wondering... was this condition seen in me during my abduction? Could I have been given the ability to direct my ideas and thoughts. I've been
discribed as a Renaissance Man by some people (since I know and come up with so many theories for so many different subjects), and gifted by others...
and just plain wierd by others still.
When I was young (post-abduction), while other kids would lay in bed at night and think about friends, girls, sports, and games - I would think about
the afterlife, existence, space-time, fate, and god. In fact, only 2 summers ago I was in Timmins, Ontario, doing construction on terrazzo floors. I
was working the graveyard shift one night with a single friend, and I started talking about philosophy and god. At first he was uncomfortable about
the topic, but tried to respond. After a while, he said to me "Davis... do you actually think about these things?" and I said "Why yeah, of course.
Don't you?". I was shocked when I heard in reply "No. I just think about girls and what I can do to them and stuff."
My heart plummetted. What a work of god is man that they do not question!
Thankfully, I've found that I'm not the only one who questions things, and I have found others. So I don't think I'm superior to anyone or
anything. But perhaps something that could have, or should have, been a disability, was morphed or changed into something that has given me a strength
that has helped me in many situations, and has given me acclaim and respect from whatever community I join.
Man, I want to find out what happened that night now more than ever. Perhaps I'm missing the piece of the puzzle that will propel me to become "Self
Realized" - the ultimate "me" - and perhaps finding out what happened there that night will finish that puzzle.