It looks like you're using an Ad Blocker.
Please white-list or disable AboveTopSecret.com in your ad-blocking tool.
Some features of ATS will be disabled while you continue to use an ad-blocker.
Originally posted by Visceral
I can honestly say I know exactly what you are feeling. I struggle with depression and it is the hardest thing I've had to deal with in my entire life. It is such a struggle just to get out of bed every day, and once I force myself to get up I spend the entire day wishing that the day was over and I was in bed. I am ashamed to admit it, but I have thought ahout suicide quite a bit, but it is not something I would do simply because I could not abandon my wife & children. If they were not in the picture, I'm sure I'd be gone by now.
I wish I had some advice for you. Nobody deserves to go through such hell. Good luck to you. I hope you find a way out!
Originally posted by smyleegrl
reply to post by FyreByrd
I have an addictive personality. I know it, and this is why I never drink alcohol and I've never smoked a cigarette. Nor will I.
Thank you for your post. It's given me a lot of hard questions to answer for myself, but that's good.
Originally posted by smyleegrl
reply to post by preludefanguy
This time though, look at your thoughts, do not seek to shut them out, do not seek to pay them more attention, but just accept them as being there. Now the goal here, is to try to visualize the thoughts passing through your head as if they were on a steady stream, drifting. What you will notice is that the thoughts, as long as you dont hold on to them, will begin drifting down the stream, and the next thought comes in, and it too will drift away. Picture them coming and going, always moving, to and from your awareness.
In this practice, you will come to see that the thoughts you have are not you, for they arise, and then they leave on their own. Throughout the course of your meditation, ask yourself, was there any thought that stayed with me through the entirety of the meditation? Also, in the back of your mind, keep one pointed concentration, this could be keeping the thought of relaxation, or keeping your thought on just the breath of your body. So, you learn to anchor your mind with this one pointed concentration, and you learn to let your thoughts flow effortlessly.
Okay, thanks. I will try this tonight after a hot bath when kiddo is in bed. I'm assuming it will take awhile to actually get good at it, but I'm willing to give it a go.
Thanks again, I appreciate it.
Originally posted by FlyersFan
Originally posted by Pinke
It's called depression. Not ungrateful-moron-syndrome.
Best post on the thread - IMHO.
There are differences between clinical depression .. PTSD ... and just being sad or stuck in a mood .. and general unhappiness. I'm seeing a lot of bad advice on this thread. Well meaning. But bad advice. To the OP .. be careful.
reply to post by LastStarfighter
It takes a person who enjoys graveyards to give the right kind of advice for this situation. Please do be careful and listen to the experts!
reply to post by Baddogma[/]
The human condition we find ourselves in when squirted into this world is, while the only one we know, odd. We are smart enough to foresee that we will die (in this place anyway), usually in pain and horror, have to continue toward that end while taking the lives of other creatures of a similar (but usually less complex) consciousness and are always separate from our fellow man while doing it, even at the moments of extreme intimacy.
If we are lucky, we get to watch our cherished fellow humans march to their demise as well... knowing that our best guess is that our whole universe will spread out into a diffuse film of atoms and go dark in the future.
And if we grasp for comfort from higher powers, we have to wonder why they feel it necessary to inflict this ignorance on us.