Strange you should just post this now - I've found my self in a similar situation..
Last month I finally admitted to my self that I have Anxiety Disorder. I've had it since I split with my abusive ex nearly 4 years ago.
I guess it was brought on due to the fact he lived and worked locally - and when I would see him, or pass by him these attacks would begin.
Pounding heart, hot flushes, cold shakes, sweating, nervousness etc etc.
It took two and a half years for these to calm down in his presence, and yet to this day I can still suffer random 'panic attacks' with underlying
anxiety always remaining - with no triggering catalyst.
As for the last 8 months we have exchanged 'pleasantries' when passing each other. I'm glad to say he no longer triggers the attacks in my
self...However I have noticed these attacks now occur in other social situations I would rather avoid...Even when there is no rational reason for me
to be fearful. Most occasions i'm bold as brass - so these random attacks are irritating to say the least.
Over the course of 4 years I have never sought help over this issue, I've had a stressful few years that include not being in steady accommodation,
nearly loosing my mother, burying my father - and bad experiences with men....Telling the doctor all these underlying causes of stress/anxiety isn't
something I really want to discuss - I generally don't like to discuss my feelings.
Having said that, two doctors I have seen for unrelated purposes have noticed my nervous twitch (constantly rolling my fingers on my left hand),and
picked up on my OCD of having to constantly play with something whilst talking... I closed them off at the point of further conversation..but after
having my last attack just last Friday, and getting sore knuckles from my twitch..I certainly think it's time I addressed this issue.
As I have told my doctors -I am completely against pharmaceuticals (one doctor actually nodded her head in agreement)..You can't fix mental issues
What I need to do is learn to express and share my feelings. I took the first step the other week in telling somebody something I have been wanting to
tell them for the last 2 years. A big breakthrough!
I'm currently dating a very nice man who I was with when I had my last attack (not because of him lol)...He was trying to be comforting and asked me
how I was but I closed him off...Tomorrow I'm going to try and tell him exactly what that 'attack' was all about.
I hope that then lifts a weight from my shoulders.
In regards to other methods - last year I made a conscious effort to meditate, it took a few months to calm my mind enough and to learn how to NOT get
distracted within the first 2 minutes aha....
But I kept at it..and it worked wonders. I had peace of mind.
I was skeptical before my success, but I can't deny it didn't help.
My life style has been a bit wild these last few months, so no meditation, as soon as I've calmed down again by next month, I intend to proceed with
Sorry for rambling - but a problem shared is a problem halved!