Originally posted by DocHolidaze
it all goes back to the parents. bullys have been around forever, as well as peer presure. what is happening is a lack of parenting.
I'm drawn to that way of thinking as well, or more specifically a lack of true communication between parent and child.
I made a genuine attempt at suicide many years ago aged 15. It was no cry for help, I had my goodbye letter in my pocket, walked up the local mountain
far enough that if I changed my mind I couldn't get back, and took 300 painkillers washed down with whisky. When the substances kicked in and I could
no longer stand up, I changed my mind, started sobbing, then passed out.
12 hours or so later I woke up in a cold early morning mist, disorientated, dizzy with blurred vision and stumbled my way back down the mountain. It
was only when I saw people who noticed my crazy condition that I realised I was actually still alive.
I wanted out because I felt absolutely lonely and misunderstood by anyone who loved me. In fact, I didn't even feel loved at all. I couldn't talk to
my parents, or rather, they couldn't talk to me unless it involved shouting and criticising me as a person, the emotional pain at that point in my
life was deep enough for me to try to end it.
Many years later after being a 16yr old homeless runaway, my life is a beautiful experience filled with the love of many people - in that sense I am
rich. I have my own late teen son and our relationship is filled with deep discussion about our feelings, life and everything. I have passionately
made efforts to make our relationship one of trust and understanding so he never feels in a lost and hopeless position as I did.
He is unafraid to discuss anything with me when it's us as one to one because he knows he can absolutely trust that my thoughts and motivation is
based solely on his happiness in getting through life. He knows my experiences and knows I never want him to feel there is no way out of anything.
He's never been in trouble but knows I'll help him fix a situation first then advise after the event - my mobile number is the one he'll give to
police if he ever makes a mistake as a testosterone fuelled teenager - although to be fair, I'd be really surprised if I ever get the call.
I help him with his homework and have done throughout his schooling, not just "have you done your work?" more "got anything you're struggling with
and want a hand for an hour?" - he won his place into the selective school he's in after difficult exams at age 11, it was what he wanted and it was
my job to give him all the help I could.
We're 'close friends' on Facebook, with no censoring of each others viewing privileges, so if something comes up on the newsfeed I'll often send
him a private message with a carefully worded suggested line to stab back at anyone who needs it. We talk about everything from girls to rugby and it
is a relationship where we comfortably discuss sex, drugs, and all the other challenges life throws up for young people, and importantly he knows that
my life experience is real and always honest where advice is concerned.
A few weeks ago he told me that his friends are jealous and wish they had the same relationship with their dads. I was surprised because at the school
he's in, most of the other dads are helicopter pilots, doctors, military officers, lawyers and the like, whereas I'm a scruffy builder with a used
car. It turns out that all his friends feel sidelined by their dads and have a relationship which is almost staged and unreal, certainly not honest or
a safe place to share emotions.
My lad is not poor financially, as I make sure he gets whichever gadget or whatever he needs to keep up with peer pressure, but his life is rich in
emotion, understanding, honesty, love, and as importantly, my actual time and effort to listen to him.
I am not unique and it is not a difficult thing to do, but I think too many parents make up lame first world excuses to explain away their poor
relationships with their kids - it takes effort, but the reward is worth more than anything I can think of in life - a happy young person who is not
secretly considering suicide.