What an horrific story,my sympathy to your best friend on the loss of her cousin,and in such an awful way.
I was on SSRI anti-d's for 13 years,foolishly believing doctors who said i would have to be on them for the duration of my life.Well,they were doing
me No good after the first 2 years,when they "stopped working" i was basically subscribed different ones to try till Something worked.In hindsight,i
now realise that Anyone in my circumstances who were Not severely depressed-would be a LUNATIC.Its NATURAL to be horribly depressed if you are trapped
under continuous unhappy and despicable circumstances! Its NATURAL to be depressed if you grew up as an abused child,a broken,wounded person all
alone in a hostile world,seething with anger and dying of pain,self-loathing, loneliness and despair on the inside. According to
circumstances,depression is actually natural,and imo,the ABSENCE thereof would indicate abnormal psychopathy.
Now when i was on Aropax,it was just plain impossible to come off-and this one i did'nt even try cold turkey,i decreased the dosage,taking half a pill
instead of a whole one,this was the 20mg tablet.And God forbid i tried to skip a day-by the 2nd day,the withdrawals would start:
Feelings of a massive impact to my head-like someone just lobbed a brick at my head,someone like a WWE wrestler.
An inability to walk properly,due to a feeling of disconnect between my feet and the floor,a lack of co-ordination,like an inability to judge the
distance between the floor and my feet-walking stopped being the natural thing it is.
Strange feelings in my body,like electrical shocks and surges through my body.
I then changed from Aropax to Cilift-which i decided at one point to quit cold turkey-and this i could do-there were some side-effects,but not nearly
as bad as those of Aropax.
I HAVE TO STATE HERE THAT I AM NOT ADVOCATING THAT ANYONE DO THE SAME-IF YOU ARE ON ANY PSYCHOTROPIC DRUGS,CONSULT YOUR DOCTOR FOR WEANING OFF THESE
DRUGS.
I'm just saying what my experiences were.
The point i'm trying to make here-I WAS JUST AS AGGRESSIVE AND VOLATILE *ON* ANTI-DEPRESSANTS THAN WITHOUT THEM.This i started noticing after the
first 1+half years,but i stayed on them because they seemed to have an effect that that was numbing my pain(emotional/mental) and i was grateful for
that bit of respite,the rest.lt was a numbness and a disconnect from the world and people.I mean, i have felt a disconnect from all people since first
memory,but definitely NOT numbness-i was at least in touch with my emotions,before i went on anti-d's.My only mistake-and this was a GRAVE,SEVERE
mistake,was to assume that it was abnormal and wrong to feel the emotions that i did.
Back then i was under the illusion that the numbness i felt on anti-d's,was what passed as normal ,and how "normal" people felt.During withdrawals
from Aropax,i was feeling so debilitated and sick that hostility and aggression did'nt even feature,i was seriously trying to just hang onto my sanity
and get through,till i had to concede that,as a mother,i had to go back on them,as otherwise i would for a while be physically unable to care for my
children.That's how debilitating it was,with the withdrawal symptoms i listed above.Maybe a strong tranquiliser would have mitigated the withdrawals
to manageable level,but i was just Sick of mind-altering medication then,i wanted no more.
My own experience has taught me a very enlightening lesson-society makes us feel that "negative" emotions like sadness,guilt,anxiety,deep-seated
anger,even stress,are abnormalities that have to be "cured".This is obscene.If these emotions are so predominant,and ceaseless,seek out a reliable
counsel like a psychologist that comes recommended for results by folks who has actually consulted with the professional in question-not a
psychiatrist as first option,but,a psychologist or trauma/stress therapist.
Regarding prisoners-there is zero hope of rehabilitation if the issues that caused the person to become an inmate in the first place, is not
addressed.If prisons are only used to detain criminals till their release,its INEVITABLE that many,if not most,will go right back to the patterns
established over a lifetime,and worse,due to all the negative influences they are surrounded by.The key should be INTERVENTION AND REHABILITATION.Mere
detainment does nothing except except keeping keeping broken,wounded,angry(often with VERY good reason) people behind bars,and then releasing them
back into a life they are not equipped to deal with in any way that is positive or beneficial,to themselves,and society as a whole.
edit on 21-3-2013 by Raxoxane because: (no reason given)
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