reply to post by chemistry
I've experienced scary sleep paralysis too, and it's horrible.
In my case I had the feeling that I was awakened by my internal "alarm bells" ringing, to alert me to some approaching danger.
I had the exact same thing happen once before, when I woke suddenly with SOMETHING'S WRONG!!!! WAKE UP!!! thoughts ringing in my head - when I
glanced down my bed covers, a large Bee was crawling towards my face!
The sleep paralysis episode started EXACTLY the same way. The SOMETHING'S WRONG!!!! thoughts, sixth sense ringing, hairs standing on end, goosebumps,
cold sweat.... etc
I fully understand that many people will say it's a state between sleep and being awake, that the paralysis is to help stop us hurting ourselves
whilst dreaming, and that we become frightened and imagine dangers because of the fear and that does seem to make sense. BUT in my case, I believe
that I was startled awake by my senses perceiving danger, exactly as had happened before with the bee. It felt exactly the same.
Then I heard it. Moving, breathing in the hallway outside my room. I opened my eyes, then found that I couldn't move. I'll repeat that so that there
is no misunderstanding - I was startled awake by a perceived danger, then I heard something in my hallway, then I opened my eyes and THEN realised
that I was paralysed.
The FEAR had nothing to do with the paralysis. I was frightened by being startled awake by something in my house that shouldn't have been there
(exactly like the bee before). I was not frightened because of the paralysis because I wasn't aware of it until I tried to move my head to take a
look at the doorway to the hall.
That's why I believe that there is more to sleep paralysis than the rational explanation.
I was NOT frightened by the paralysis, so I could not have "imagined" the presence in my house as a result of the fear of the paralysis. I was
frightened by the presence BEFORE I knew that I was paralysed.
What was the presence?
I don't know.
It felt Huge. Powerful. Evil.
It sounded large, heavy, with deep snorting breaths - kind of like a bull?
It drifted across my room, past the foot of my bed, and left through a closed window, at which point the paralysis (and fear) lifted.
I wish that people who have not experienced the evil/scary presence associated with sleep paralysis could be a little more understanding of the
possibility that there is more to this phenomenon than fear triggering imagined presences.
If it were just an imagined fear, then why do nearly all sufferers of SP "imagine" the same fear?
Why the evil presence? Why the weight on the chest? Why not spiders / snakes / rats / fire / (insert any other common fear here) ?
I'm sorry I can't be more help, and wish you all the best.