I don't know how I ever got through school without being drugged.
Still got A's and B's.
There were a lot of hyper kids in my class, including me. But at least we had recess all through high school. One of my issues is even in class my
knees would want to move. IDK, thinking about basketball maybe? I wasn't a dumb kid, but I got bored. I did the work. There were worse kids.
I think I have a lot of problems. So far, based on my research I have ADHD and ODD and OCPD and APD. So I'm a guy that has to steer clear of
psychiatric clinics. My goal in life is to live without medicating myself. Every so often I learn something more. I even create my own ideas.
Personality tests take several years apart says I'm INTP.
Honestly, this society gets uglier and uglier the older I get. Too authoritarian. It's not so much that we're ruled by one leader, it's that we're
ruled. That's what matters. We follow rules.
My theory is it has to do with increasing population and technology and knowledge. All of these things come together like a mixture of chemicals. The
standards are going up. Expectations are going up. Everything is expected to flatten out and go steady. Weapons are more powerful. So if there's a
loose nut then the whole machine can break. It just requires one person to make hell.
To solve this vulnerability we're controlling things. Everything. More and more.
Obviously, we can't go back in time to a point where we didn't have to walk a thin line. We're in this for the long road. So regrettably it will all
get worse. We'll become more like machines. I'm not implying we'll lose our emotions. I'm instead stating that relative to past generations we'll be
that way. I don't think we'll ever be robots in absolute terms, although we may have robotic slaves.
I honestly think one of the reasons we die is because we wouldn't want to live. Most old people have disagreements with the world. Many wouldn't want
to live longer, you know? I think it depends how closely we identify with the culture we grew up in and how we tolerate change. I was first exposed to
this idea in Rama Revealed. People reach a point where they refuse to change.
Don't mistake that for suicidal ideations. It's just an idea that I tickle in my mind. I'll never understand people who control their mind so much
that they'd never allow themselves to think this. All I'm doing is wondering if even given the chance to live longer we would decline it for these
Anyway maybe we refuse to change and instead identify with the culture we grew up in because that was when we were young. Now we're old. We can't
keep up. So fall behind. So the possibility is that if you were to make old people young again (possibly against their will) they will re-adjust.
A old worn rusty bolt doesn't turn. A fresh new greased bolt turns. This is the thought.
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