Firstly credit where it's due, after a long "logged in" absence from this site I felt obligated to post a response to this great thread by sirric,
10 Signs of Spiritual Awakening
I had an experience recently, I won't divulge what it was, that part isn't relevant, I will share what I observed/felt during the experience for
people here to take from it, what they will. I won't say this is the gospel in anyway, shape or form, it was personal to me, but is shared for others
to question and feel themselves.
Firstly, words cannot describe the universe...
Think about that for a moment. Words cannot really describe the massiveness, complexity, the why, the how or what of the universe. To extend that one
step further, our rational minds need to have answers, it needs to know, it thirsts to understand these elements, to put into boxes with precise
Language itself has lost some of its divine interpretation... I believe (but could be wrong) that it is impossible to truly translate some
words/phrases/meaning into English, which itself is not much of a divine language, and is very much a literal/rational language. Extend this onto
maths/algorithms/equations... this is but our rational mind having to make sense/label/put the workings of the universe into a box of understanding.
Maths doesn't really do the mechanics of itself the visual/functional justice... as it's our limited way of understanding maths in order to put it
into logical/rational order.
The best way I can sum the point above up is with the following short video from "A Beautiful Mind"
* Please note, my points above are aimed generically, I know not everyone sees maths in its handwritten form
To further my points, with the general idea in mind, the idea that the rational mind needs to make sense and order out of everything, that everything
needs to be named, boxed and controlled I want to put this to you...
The universe, or the creative source of the universe is Chaos... but not chaos as we have been conditioned to believe it to be. Instead chaos is free
moving, creative, flowing, ever changing, like the tides, river, oceans. Infinite possibilities, art, music, sound, colour, shapes, patterns and
form... the creative source creates. It is different and separate from our 3D world, but connected all the same. Space, time, size have no purpose
here... for it is the creative source.
In complete contrast, this world, our 3D experience is actually ORDER. We may believe we live in a chaotic world, but it isn't, chaos is simply a
pre-conditioned belief system which is fundamentally wrong (possible conspiracy in itself that one). This world of limited sense and experiences is
ORDER because, the rational mind wins. It is designed for the rational mind, for rational experience. Wherever we come from (soul/spirit/essence), is
from a place where rational thought does not exist, things just are, without reasons, things flow, without question.
Yet in order to grow and expand our creative energies, we need to broaden those perspectives, and that is what our physical 3D experience is about in
this world of ORDER. We cannot experience what this reality provides up beyond the veil of our perceived reality, therefore this is our training
ground, it is our teacher, our lesson to learn from. It is ugly at times, but it is experience, and experience broadens our creative abilities.
So what is the point/purpose?
I can't answer that question, because the human mind cannot fathom or begin to understand the meaning behind it. And again, part of the problem
itself is the human mind, trying to understand, trying to gain meaning. My new belief, as a result of my experience, is that a lot of religious
concepts are a limited understanding of the universe/creative source translated into a form which "the mind can understand".
So how do I cope knowing this?
What was profound in my experience was that, experience is the reason I am here. To taste, to smell, to listen, to feel, to love (hopefully lol), to
share, to see, to do... I am here for experience. Of course I have a level of input (rather than control) over the richness of my experience. The
closer I get to experiencing the creative source, art, shape, sound, patterns, form etc - the better and richer my experiences become. Think about how
an image/music/video may have brought you to tears, but it wasn't happy, or sad, you couldn't explain it, but it touched your soul (if you will).
That right there, is allowing your experience to reflect and indulge in your true nature, without reason, just being. Those experiences enable you to
be alive and to see the colour and beauty in the world.
Am I talking a load of BS?
Quite possibly, I have no way of knowing for sure whether my experience was real, or just some funky sub conscious neural activity... but it was mine
none the less and I know how something changed within me as a result of the experience. To summarise, this human vessel can not ever fully learn or
understand, or make sense of the universe in its entirety - because the very existence of our reality (beyond this 3D world) cannot be put into
So how does this relate to sirric's thread listed at the start?
My spiritual awakening, through my experience(s) has given me understanding that there is far more beyond this lifetime. I cannot prove it, nor do I
need to, for my belief is mine alone, and is being shared here for others to take from it what they will. The richness of the chaos via the creative
source was beautiful, and possibly the only time I had ever felt or experienced true unconditional love... and even that truth behind the meaning of
that term cannot be expressed in words.
So with my understanding in place, my spiritual awakening is about guiding my experience to be alligned more with creativity. Whether it be in the
gym, through music, work, gardening... pick a thing. Creativity, colour, sound, laughter is what will be my driving source. Not fear, anger, hate,
sadness... indulging in those emotions, will bring experiences that reflect their states. How I interact and react to others will be different, again
I will guide my experiences and interactions in the same way. Take what you will, leave what doesn't fit, and thanks for reading... apologies if I
babble on... remember words can't do it justice