Hello ATS. I know that there are literally hundreds of people waking up every single day in our everchanging world, but I would like to share my own
personal story that led me to be enlightened.
It all began with me becoming a skeptic. I would listen to political radio hosts such Rush and Sean Hannity and even though they make me laugh to this
day at some of their rants, I was very skeptic about their motives and this is what started it all.
Listening to their claims led me to DOING MY OWN RESEARCH. In doing my own research rather than listening to the MSM resulted in me finding so many
more truths than what we were actually told. So, once I learned doing my own research was the way to go, I began to question many of the things that I
learned in my, thus far, short life, beginning with my religion: Catholicism.
For 18 years (since birth), I had been a devoted Catholic. I attended church weekly. was very active in the church, and even served as an altar boy
for a couple of years. I basically lived life by believing in the Bible and nothing but the Bible, simply because that's how I was raised and was
taught nothing else. Everything else I was told was wrong (so why read into it?), but I was always told to no matter what respect other viewpoints.
My first skepticism of Catholicism came when I realized that I was worshipping a false God every single day. In Catholicism, we are not told Jesus,
and sometimes even Mary Magdalene, are to be worshipped, but we still do it. That right there was a violation of the first commandment that I had
thought I had be obeying for all these years: (In lehmans terms: Thou shall not worship other God's).
At this point of realization, I began to question my entire belief system. I searched online day after day trying to find something that not only
spoke to me, but made sense. I researched everything from Buddhism, to Sikhism, To Islam. Still, nothing. Finally, I came across a book that I am sure
many fellow ATS'ers are familiar with: "Conversations With God" by Neale Donald Walsch. This book is a transcript of a man who literally has a
conversation with God through automated writing. Neale would simply write a question on a piece of paper, and then God would take over his hand and
begin to answer his questions through his writing. This book is basically a New Ager's bible. I rented this book from our library and finished it
within a day. The words sounded so truthful and sensible that I could not help but to cry at several parts of this book.
I knew I finally had it figured out. Basically, love unconditionally and be happy and God will take care of the rest. I looked at it this way: If I
never thought about being in a bad mood or being angry or being in pain, then God would never allow me to be put in situations where I these things
are existent. I loved that I now had a God that actually made sense, especially because all other human theologies only make sense if we accept a God
that makes no sense at all.
So, with this new approachto life, I decided to get off my bloody laptop, and go test my new means of living. Instantly, and I am talking within HOURS
of basically only thinking about love, I noticed that not only was I much happier, but everyone around me was always happy, in good moods, and
smiling...and I'm talking ALWAYS. My girlfriend had seemed to feed off of my positive energy and our relationship became much more laid-back and fun.
Also I noticed around this time that my girlfriends chronic headaches had began happening much less frequently.
About a week into my new approach, everything was jusy peachy, until my happiness got continually tested by continually being told about all of the
horrors of our World. Now I faced a crossroads...How could I remain happy knowing that there are people living in so much sorrow? Well, I did what I
thought was the most logical thing: simply do not think about bad things. Within weeks of this realization, Kony was exposed, and seemingly good
things began to happen that began to reveal and uplift a few of the evils of the World.
In finally beginning to get good at controlling my thoughts, I began directing my thoughts to actually being able to do things rather than just
wanting to do things, and constantly telling myself how much I love things rather than longing to love something. Instantly, things that I love
beganhappening more commonly in my life and God began bringing me happiness through those things that I love.
If there was one thing that I could convince everyone in the World about God, it is that He will bring to you the things you love. I knew this because
the new God that I had discovered ACTUALLY MADE SENSE!!! Wait, wait, wait....you mean to say that even if you lvoe candy, then God will make sure he
finds a way to more commonly bring candy into your life? My answer to this is yes. Why? BECAUSE GOD MAKES SENSE! OMG!
Yes, God may work in mysterious ways, but he never hates, for love is all God knows. Now this is where I see a lot of people getting caught up. They
ask: If God does not hate, then why is there so much bad in the World? And people BLAME GOD. This is what just absolutely baffles me about the general
population when it comes to their views of God. If God made everything happy then we would not have free will and people would hate God for that, but
God did give us free will, we took advantage of it, turned our World into a craphole, and blamed it ON HIM!!! Why did we do this? because we could not
accept that it was our own fault that we made all these things happen. Our ego told us that this has to be someone else's fault so we blamed it on
Our ego's have have come through our skin and personally, I am still trying to weaken my ego every single day yet it still finds a way to surface on
occasion. Altough it may surface, every single time I notice my ego is taking over, I shut it up and continue to strive to be a better being. That is
all I ask of myself and that is all I ask that others try to do for themsleves.
To all those who have, like me, awoken, feel free to share, compare, and contrast your stories here.
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